Stay With Me

Chapter - 28

I wish these all were a nightmare only. It's been 14 days since that incident. But still, my body is in pain. Why? Because dad beats me everyday. It has turned into his daily habit. Mom never comes to save me or console me. They say I deserve it. I can't contact Jeremy. How is he? Is he alright? What's he thinking? I am missing him a lot. 
The spots of my body are becoming black day by day. I put on oversized clothes these days so that I can hide my wounds. I am far away from studying. I can't give attention. I am kept away from private classes also. My life is just like a criminal's life now. A life where there is no peace, nothing positive. You are living in a prison. There is no one to talk to, no one with whom your feelings can be shared. Just they give you food sometimes or sometimes not, cause in this situation somehow the hunger also escapes. And they beat you whenever they want. It's like a drug to them. I have read somewhere that a person who gets pleasure by beating others is called a masochist. 
But is my dad a masochist?  Does he enjoy beating me? Does he enjoy beating his own daughter? And what about my mom? Doesn't she love me? Can't she feel her child's pain? These are the questions I have in my brain.
God, I just loved someone. Loving someone can never be so terrible. Right? I didn't sin, didn't commit a crime! So, why me? Why only me? 

I am letting out my breath so hard. 
You know, on Earth there is no safe place, there is no place where you can feel relaxed. The person who is imprisoned in the jail thinks that, "I have committed a crime and that is why I am suffering. I didn't know what love is." But the people who live outside the prison think that "We have not committed a crime, we have loved, that is also our situation."
No one is happy in this world. No one feels peaceful. Because whether you commit something dangerous or not, you will be justified as the same.