Stay With Me

Chapter - 33

[ 5 days later]
At 8:30 pm.

Jeremy is busy with his studies. He stays at his university hall. I am also covering up all the topics I missed. Also, I am studying so hard. My exams are knocking at the door. I can't chat with him very often. Also can't meet him. I miss him a lot. I just pass my days thinking of him and all the days we spent together. 
My parents don’t know that I still have a relationship with him. If they find it, they will kill me. I am in a very confusing part of my life. I have my parents on a side, whom I love so much and they also love me a lot. And on the other side,  I have Jeremy who is the love of my life and he also loves me so much. I can't leave my family for Jeremy. I also can't leave Jeremy for my family. So what should I do? Should I die? I am in great despair. It's being difficult for me to be attentive in my studies, to maintain a familiar relationship with my parents. I often look at the night sky in a dark room and only cry. My life has completely changed. I don’t even like to draw. My sketchbook, colours, pencils and other materials are also looking gloomy. I haven’t touched them for many days. But I think I can draw something today.

I opened my sketchbook. Yeah, the sketch of my love. I haven’t given it to him. I totally forgot. Whenever he comes on holiday this week, I will give it to him. I start to draw a rose in memory of the last rose he gave to me. The rose is still inside my diary with which he proposed to me. It is faded but still it has a sign of love. I touch the rose everyday. It reminds me of him. 
I look at the sky. It's dark. There's a star. Beautiful. I wonder if Jeremy is also seeing the same star.
Me : Hey cutie star! Please tell Jeremy that Bella loves him. And Bella will always love him.
The star shimmers, in my point of view. Not sure.