Losing You (a.banks x y/n)

Chapter 10

I wake up and go to the bathroom, I look at my arm, bruised and her fingernails left little scars that should leave in a day or two. 'I'm not going to let her get in the way.' I tell myself, but I can already feel her grasp on my feelings. She's poked where it hurt, and she knows it. I don't want to burden anybody else with this, this is my problem, and I have to deal with it alone.

I make my lunch and get dressed, making sure to wear a long sleeve shirt. 'I'll keep it hidden until it's healed.' I style my hair and then decide to put it up. At 7:30, I leave the apartment to get to the school on time for my appointment this morning. While I drive, I think of the petty little argument with Adam. It was so stupid.

When I get to the school, I see no sign of Mindy and a wave of relief washes over me. I put my stuff into my locker and head to Mrs.Smiths office.

"You know. I think we could just meet twice weekly, and then after games we can see how it feels if you need some assistance?" Mrs.Smith explains.

"Yeah, I think that'll be good. Thank you Mrs.Smith." I say and I leave her office, and go to my locker to grab my notebooks.

"Hey." A solemn voice says, and I look beside me to see Adam leaning against the lockers. "I wanted to apologize for how I acted yesterday. It was stupid. What can I do for you to forgive me?" He takes my hand, and I pretend to think.

"Mmm flowers, and expensive gifts!" I joke, and I laugh. "I forgive you Adam. I was being petty too. But you should have said something earlier."

"Yeah I know, I could've handled it better." I shut my locker and we begin walking down the hall.

"Congrats on Varsity by the way." I tell him, but he stays quiet for a minute.

"Yeah, I don't know if I want to be in varsity. I mean I have no choice, my dad is going to force me, but I'd rather stay on JV and play with you guys." He takes my hand and intertwines our fingers. "But I mean, now you can say that your boyfriend is a Varsity athlete." He acts all smug which makes me nudge him with my hip and we laugh.

"Don't forget some of you are presenting your speech tomorrow! It better be ready and it better be good." Mr. Kalaski says as the bell rings, signalling English is over. I walk down the hall back towards my locker to switch my notebooks for AP Math. I'm heading towards the class when I spot Mindy and her girls. I try my best to avoid them, but I knew they saw me. They didn't try anything, but the thought of them being around me makes my stomach turn.

When I walk into the cafeteria, I don't see Adam at the duck table. I look around and I see him sat with Varsity. It takes makes me stop for a second but I know that it was probably Rick that put him there. Adam and I make eye contact and I can tell he's not having fun. I walk over to the table.

"Hey Adam are you going to come have lunch with me?" I ask, and he jumps up.

"Yes. I mean yeah." He replies and I can see Rick staring at me. I walk away with Adam over to the table where the ducks are sat. Nobody looks up, or even says hi when we walk up to the table.

"Do you wanna go sit outside?" Adam whispers and I nod my head. We walk out the doors and over to a tree and sit down. He lays out his varsity jacket for me to sit on and I smile at the gesture. We eat in silence for a bit before I break it.

"Orion wants to make me captain." I blurt and Adam looks up. "I told him to wait until he sees Charlie play with us today and then make his decision tomorrow."

"Charlie would be pretty mad at you if you took it from him, but y/n, being captain would be an honor." He takes my hand and squeezes it.

"Yeah I know. What makes me feel worse though is that I actually want it. Of course Charlie has been our captain for how long, but part of me wants to be captain." I look down at the ground, not wanting to meet Adams eye.

"Maybe you could be co-captains? It's been done before." He suggest and I shrug.

"I'm not sure, I just hope Orion keeps an open mind today." I pack my stuff back into my lunch kit, not wanting to eat anymore.

"Hey did you happen to do that History thing? We got it like last week? It's due tomorrow." Adam asks and I nod. "Can I have it? I'm only missing like a few answers and I don't feel like going to the library for like 3 things."

"Yeah, I'll give it to you when we get to class." We sit there in silence a bit, me taking in the nice weather and Adam thinking god knows what.

"Please don't say anything to anybody about the captain thing." I ask him, "I don't want everybody to hate me in case it doesn't happen."

"I wont my love. You confided in me, so it stays with me." Adam grabs my hand and kisses it. The bell rings and we grab our stuff and head inside.

"Here's the sheet." I hand it to Adam and he starts writing them down. "Are you coming to watch the game today?" I ask. He looks at me as if I'm stupid.

"Well duh. You're my girlfriend and you're playing, and no matter what I'll always be a duck and I want to watch you guys do good." He responds and turns around to finish writing the answers.

I decide to just stay at the school till the game and Adam decided to stay with me. I rehearse my speech in front of him in one of the little study rooms in the library.

"Is it any good?" I ask, nervous that I made a bland speech.

"No no I thought it was really good." He reassures me which calms me down abit. "You know, we should probably get heading to the rink." I look at the clock at the wall.

"Ooh yeah."

We stand in the hallway leading to the locker room for a second.

"A good-luck kiss." Adam states, then kisses me. When we pull away, I decide to joke.

"Can I have one more for extra?" We laugh and he gives me another quick one before letting me walk into the locker room to change.

Everybody is in the locker room getting changed. I go to take my shirt off, then remember what's underneath. I grab my compression shirt that I wear underneath my gear and quickly slip it in before anybody can look. Once everything is on, I sit down to tie my skates.

A million thoughts go through my head. Orion wanting me to be Captain, Adam and Varsity, Mindy and her minions. I'm worried about everything. Orion comes in and tells us we can head out now. I grab my stick and my helmet and walk out the doors, into the unknown, where nobody knows what's going to happen next.