The lost triplets

chapter 61

I have no idea what's going to happen I'm making this up as I go along.

Its continued on from last chapter.

Also I know James hasn't been explored but  James will be explored in another chapter. I want to give them their own chapters.

"I dont know if I can"

Lorenzo wanted Alex to open up but he didn't want to pressure him. He saw Alex looked conflicted.

"If I tell you something you will put together everything" Alex whispered.

"But you want to tell us as much as possible? "

"Yes but I don't want you to get angry right now" Alex whispered again. He was still getting used to hugs by others and although Lorenzo had hugged him before, he found himself feeling safer in this hug mostly because he knew Lorenzo more now and maybe he was ready to open up a little more.

"I don't want the hug to end" he quietly admitted.

It suprised Lorenzo and he knew Alex was feeling vunerable especially if he admitted that.

"You can tell me anything Alex. This hug won't end until you want it to" Lorenzo said.

"I'm a criminal. I don't deserve a hug " Alex broke down , he hurried his head into Lorenzo's t-shirt and started to cry. He didn't dare look at Lorenzo. He didn't want to see the hate.

"What have you done" Lorenzo asked hugging him tighter for comfort. He was curious about what Alex had done.

"I was a drug dealer. And one night I had no choice. They pulled a gun on me and I panicked. I stole a knife from his friend and I stabbed him. He didn't die but I stabbed him." Alex said, he was fully crying into Lorenzo's shirt now and the tears wouldnt stop.

"Its okay, you're okay now. You do deserve this hug" Lorenzo said.

He was angry. Not at Alex, he was angry at whoever made him deal drugs.

"You're okay Alex I'm not angry with you" Lorenzo repeated.

"What if I told you I hurt alot of people. Not on purpose and I didn't hurt them severely but I did it to protect Skye and James" he whispered through tears , he was still crying.

"Alex can I ask you a question" Lorenzo said noticing his choice of words.

"You defended James and Skye but did you ever defend yourself"

Alex shook his head, he still didn't dare look up and he was afraid he had damaged Lorenzo's shirt by crying into it.

Lorenzo just hugged Alex tighter in response. It broke him to know Alex never defended himself.

"Why not" he asked.

"Because if I'm being hurt then they aren't. It would be selfish of me. I deserve it sometimes. Sometimes I mess up and it's deserved. And maybe if I'm in physical pain I'm more focused on that rather than the mental pain"

Lorenzo had worked out long ago they were abused and as time went on he realised the abuse was bad, but hearing Alex, he realised he truly had no idea.

No kid deserves to feel like that. He knew there would be more to come, this was only part of it.

"Its never selfish of you to defend yourself. You don't ever deserve to be in pain"

Alex wanted to believe him but he was struggling.

"What about the drug dealing and stabbing someone" he asked expecting Lorenzo to call him all sorts of vile names but each time he had opened up, Lorenzo hugged him more.