Tattoo over my heart

The truth

Chris POV

She told me everything she could she said, she told me everything that she was allowed too. Her rules and regulations of being part of the Sons Of Anarchy only allowed so much to be shared. I didn't know how to react the things she told me, where something out of a movie. It didn't seem real, it seemed like movie world and real world had collided. I asked for the truth and I got it, and now I don't know how to react or what to say.

"Chris?"
I look over and see Harley staring at me, her eyes holding anxiety waiting on a batted breathe so see how or what I would do.
"I don't know what to say"
She nods "I understand chris, if you want time to process then please feel free. This isn't exactly day to day things"
"No it's not. You grew up your whole life like that?"
She nods "born and raised. My dad being an original member meant perks in some ways but always exceptions too"

"And when your dad died, your mum?"
"Became an addict, sold her self for sex and drugs"
"So your were raised by...."
"Jaxs mum Gemma. Shes wonderful"
"And clay?"
"Is a dick! He is the president of the club and he's a complete dickhead. He's the reason my mum did what she did"
I nod, I stand and I start to pace back and forth, she watches me. Follows my every move with her eyes. As I look back at her, I can't help but feel overwhelmed.
"I'm sorry Harley, I need some air"
And with that I walk out and close the door behind me.

Harley POV

And there he goes. I knew it wouldn't take much, this life I lead or did lead it's enough to chase anyone away. I don't blame Chris, my world isnt like his, he is used to the Hollywood bubble. Me I'm used to the pits of Charming, drugs, whores and guns. I knew going to Trig was a stupid move, but when I found out Ryan's girlfriend was part of our rival gang, I knew it would end up in disaster sooner rather then later.

I also knew clay would try and get me back into it all in order for them to help me. Trig seems to have more loyalty to his club president then to me his little sister. I had to figure away out of all this before I ended up with Myans at my door.
I look at my door one more time, hoping maybe he would be walking back through it. But no such luck, I really messed this one up. Something that could have been epic.

I collect our cups and make my way to the kitchen, washing up and tidying up all the mess around me. Cleaning is always my go to way to distract myself. I feed the dogs and give them all some love before deciding it was time to hit the Hay. It had been a long day and although it was only barley 6pm I needed to go to bed and try to sleep this whole day away. As I get half way, I hear my door knock. Climbing back down the stairs, heading over. I open it to see Jax standing there, a sad and solemn look on his face.

"Jax?"
"It's Trig you have to come now"
I grab my coat and my keys, kiss my babies goodbye and head out. Climbing on the back of his motorbike and heading to my brother where ever he maybe and whatever maybe wrong, he is my brother and I will be by his side.