I'm So Sorry... (Antisepticeye x Reader) Book 1

Chapter 2

Song Inspiration: A Thousand Years - Christina Perri

(Y/N)'s P.O.V

"You're so slow, (Y/N)! Hurry up!" Anti grinned as he turned to face me, his eyes shining at the thought of winning our playful race. "I'm trying, you're just too fast!" I responded with a breathless laugh, trying my hardest to catch up to the glitch. I was the first to get him out of his shell, to show him that people cared about him.

I was his first /real/ friend, not including his brothers, and had a crush on him that was blossoming further and further into love. But I was always nervous about him finding out.

It was supposed to be after our race... I was going to finally tell him...

A bright, beautiful summer morning, the wind blowing just enough to create a nice breeze for our weekly trip to the park. "If you win the race, I'll tell you my biggest secret!" I told him, laughing as he accepted my challenge eagerly, a fire dancing in his multi-colored eyes. 'What could go wrong?' I thought to myself before we set out to our normal picnic location, unaware of the events that would change our lives for the worst.

We were nearing the park, Anti in the lead when we heard Jackie yell out from behind us but we couldn't make out what he was saying until it was too late. A gunshot then a thud as Anti collapsed onto the ground next to me. A scream then another gunshot as my body acted on its own as I covered Anti's body with my own so he wouldn't get hurt even more severely. "Dammit he got away!" Jackie cursed as he ran up to us. "Anti got hit-!" "Get the fuck off of me!" Anti hissed and shoved me of harshly. "I'm fine, Jackie. Whatever it was, it wasn't a normal  bullet. Are ya hurt?" he asked as he checked up on his brother. "Me? Hurt? Of course not! (Y/N), are you okay?" Jackie asked, looking me over. "What does she matter? She shoulda taken the damn bullet." Anti scoffed.

My eyes widened when I heard him and took a step back, his sudden change startling me. "H-Hey! Don't talk to her like that! She's your best friend!" "Like hell! She was fuckin useless!"

'Oh yeah. That's when it started.' I thought to myself, shaking my head. The house was quiet save for the creaking as it settled. I smiled to myself as I took the pills out of my medicine cabinet. "I always hated taking antidepressants." I mumbled with a quiet but sad giggle at the irony of the situation. 'Pills should be painless enough.' I sat in front of my door, my handwritten suicide note next to me where the others could see it, if they even cared enough.

I quickly took the pills with a bottle of water and closed my eyes, a smile on my face as I remembered how we all used to be, wanting my last moments to be happy, darkness engulfing me.