Too Fat *Michael. Clifford *

11

Cecilia

I woke up hella happy I don't know why but I just felt like it's gonna be good day . It was pretty early so I decided to make breakfast but I have to look good. I walked to what clothes Michael given me from his friend.

I got a pair of black skinny jeans and muscle tank with vans and high pony tail. I wasn't in the make up type of mood I joyfully went to the kitchen and looked through the cabinets.

I got the eggs and bread ,bacon ,sausages,hash browns. I agreed with homemade French traits hash browns eggs bacon with sausages. I started preparing breakfast but the silence was just a little not enough so I plugged in my head phones and ed Sheehan kiss me came on.

I couldn't help but smile it's like when your favorite song come on and you kept help but feel happy when it plays so all you do is just go into your own world.

I wasn't even worried bout anything as I was in the mix of things and waiting for the bacon and eggs start to cook first. I started to clean and dance a little and soon I started to sing good rush by my boy ed. Oh my god something has seriously got into me.

I was twirling with my broom and singing my lungs out I got the food read and sat on the table and I wrote a note on Michael. I grabbed an index card and scribbled a few that things.

"Michael thank you for everything the chance for loving me for everything."

I turned around to see 4 boys directly amused on what I put on they smiled like idiots who were on a sugar high. "Encore" Luke shouts I send him a glare as I watch him jump back .

"Cecilia you made this all for us ?" Michael said I looked down "just a little thank you from me." He smiles but all Ashton says "lets eat!". We laugh at his gesture and Michael pushes my seat in and outs his hand on my thigh as he read my note. I smiled like and idiot as we all ate calum kept taking all the French toast he was not willing to share. As I finish eating the boys were still stuffing faces but Michael he got orange juice and went to the balcony. He knew it was me "your voice is so beautiful you should know that." I laugh and wrap myself around him as he sent light gentle kisses on ear lobe. I giggle quietly we just looked up at the sky together.

"I love you " He says I hide my face with redness "I'm not gonna get used to that? I laugh as he whisper you should. That's when I realized happiness doesn't come from people but being happy with yourself. I smile and passionately kiss Michael as he grabbed my waist I pull away "thank you" I whisper and that's when I knew it would be okay. It's not that I needed a boy it's that I had to love myself before I can love someone else. Michael was slowly teaching me to love myself.  To love my loud laugh to love my weird addictions to love my little "flaws" because in the end there's nothing really wrong with me. That the word "fat" is literally just a word.  It's a word that I let get to me . Like "ugly"  it's something I let bother me which I shouldn't,because I know honestly I'm beautiful inside and out. I'm not gonna lie I will fall but I won't break because I came a long way. I'm also not gonna let stupid words coming from girls who are jusy as insecure as me. Also those words shouldn't define me who I am as a person.

Well hello there my fellow humans sorry for being dry af lately.  I also wanna say that if you're feeling insecure about yourself don't I mean were all gonna fall and think the worst but please don't because you're honestly the most amazing person put on this earth. I just don't want stupid words like "fat" or "ugly" get to you because you're really not. If anything you're priceless no one can name your beauty. If that makes any sense but you mean alot and you will be seeing alot of me for now on.

Ily

- ya girl T