Too Fat *Michael. Clifford *

Chapter 13

A/N Okay so I've been getting comments on my character and how they admire her because she's not bigger. What I'm trying to say I make plus size character's because we live im world where society judges us by a size. For petes sake when you walk into malls and you go into pink or garage ( Idk if you have this store) the higest size they'll go up to is a 12. I wanted to make a relatable character for people who are plus sized because sometimes I wake up and it's hard because I feel like I won't be accepted. It took me very long to realize this but I don't have to be accepted. Who gives a crap honestly I got tired being afraid ro eat in front of people I got tired of going to malls with my friends and not being able to shop bc I'm not that size. I'm also not saying everyone's like this but I don't want you guys to think your ugly constantly and saying your fat because your not. You're truly beautiful and it's not "fat" it's curves. I just wanted to share that your not alone I have some everyday struggles to. I don't know if it helps or anything but I'm a size 16. :-) but I'm gonna stop yapping and update already.

*Michael
I put the letter in an envelope and sealed it and wrote Cecelia scribbled on it. I really want her to truly know how I feel about her. I've never been good at words but that shouldn't matter. I walk out the room and go find Cecelia I walk by the living room and I see her snuggled up she fell asleep.

I scooped her up bridal style and brought her to a guest room. I tucked her in and I looked at her and I just knew I want something great with her. She breathed slowly her nose twitched in the cutest way. I took the letter out of my pocket and slipped it nexted to her.

I leaned into her and pecked her lips and whispered in her ear "I love you Cecelia". I walked out happy and never thought to hear this but she said "I love you too." She said nearly in a whispere. I walked out full of happiness.

I got this feeling that everything might be okay that maybe what I have going on is completely right in every single way. I walked into my room and laid down. I felt all these emotions and thought about these priceless memorise. Do you ever get this feeling where your heart start to race real fast because the person you like is making you feel funny.

Or when you look each other in the eye and you give a smile and looks awkward but deep down everything is going wild sparks and emotions are flying you don't know how to react. That's what I feel every time I see Cecelia.

*Cecelia
I knew Michael put me on my hand I was kinda a light sleeper but I was too tired to object walking to my room. I didn't Like being carried I felt like a million pounds. When he tucked me in it was the cutest thing ever. What I didn't know what he was gonna say I love you. Of course we said it once but it was heat in the moment. But I genuinely felt it I knew I loved michale but I feel once I say it there's no taking it back my vulnerability is open. But I couldn't hide anymore bc I do love Michael and I wanted to tell him that what I felt was real. After he left my emotions for the best od me and I couldn't sleep anymore. I looked at what michale put next to me. It was a letter. I read it slowly and soon I felt my wet tears pool on my face. My heart cried of happiness. I got out of bed and ran into his room I found him fast asleep. I sat near his bed side,my mom once told me a perosn can take in anything when they sleep. They hear you and they're processing what they're saying. It's like a dream you don't know what's going on or if it's real or not. I took a deep breath and got ready to pore my heart out.
"Michale I'm not the skinnest I know that but I feel like I really don't need to worry because what you've shown me is compassion. Something I've never really experienced beforw. I used to not believe in love because it never worked in my mind. I was this insecure girl living in this cruel world. I still am some times but I know I'm not alome emotionaly or physically. Michael I love you for teaching me to let go. I was so consciously worried about my every move. I sound like am idot for petes sake I'm in her crying and smiling I probably look like a mani-"

I was cut off when his gently soft lips intertwined with mine. He caressed my cheek and took me in. He spoke "and by the way your my maniac" I laughed . i scooted next to him and rested my head on his chest and before I know it I was out like a light.