When All We Have Is Peace

Octavia

The stars seemed brighter than usual as Octavia made her way around Camp Jaha, checking in on her friends and the Grounder scouts that were joining her and Bellamy on their mission to find Clarke. She could feel a sort of nervous tension in the air as she walked, but that was how things were now; everyone was nervous, especially the kids they had rescued from Mount Weather. Octavia sighed and went to return to her's and Lincoln's tent, when a silhouette caught her eye, and she turned to see Jasper leaning against the side of the Ark. His head was tilted back resting against the metal, in the moonlight she could see that there were tears sliding down his cheeks. Octavia felt a pang of sympathy for him, and she approached Jasper slowly. His eyes snapped open when he heard her, and he turned his head away to wipe his eyes. Octavia pretended not to notice as she sat down next to Jasper, letting out an exhausted sigh.

"Can't sleep either?" Jasper wondered after a minute or two of silence.

"I don't exactly trust Abby's people to keep us safe." Was her cool and quiet response. He dipped his head in agreement, staring off into the distance. Octavia studied him in silence, watching the way his jaw would clench and his face would suddenly drain of color for a second. The sight tore at her heart.

Jasper shook his head and glanced over at her. "I don't think I can forgive her." He whispered, looking down at his hands. "I mean, I'm glad we got out and a lot of that is thanks to Clarke...but..."

"But she killed Maya."

His eyes slipped shut and Jasper nodded. "There had to have been another way."

Octavia dipped her head, knowing full well that there hadn't been another way at the time. There hadn't been any time to come up with a better solution, but of course Jasper couldn't accept that. It was the one thing he and Clarke had in common these days. "She did the best she could Jasper."

"It wasn't good enough." Jasper managed to choke out.

Octavia sighed once again and turned to look him in the eye. "Tomorrow, we are going to bring her back and honestly, whatever hatred and anger you are feeling toward her right now, I can assure you that it is nothing compared to how she is feeling about herself. I'm not asking you to love her again, but I am asking you to try your best to forgive her. She needs us Jasper."

Jasper didn't say anything as she got to her feet and made her way to her tent. It wasn't until she was tucked safely in Lincoln's arms that Octavia realized just how similar her conversation with Jasper had been to the one she'd had with Clarke in the mines.