I sat in bed with my back against the headboard and my MacBook on my lap. The bright green letters of the Arizona State University logo shined against my face as my mouse hovered over the Enroll Now! icon.
It was officially open enrollment season for ArizonaU, but I knew my current chances of getting accepted into the program was 0%. What happened with Santana and the dean at the museum assured my rejection from the school, but I couldn't deny the urge to still want to apply. Nas told me he would talk to Santana's mom. I didn't know what that meant exactly, all he told me was 'don't worry about it'. If I was being honest, I didn't like how ominous that sounded. I was in the dark about pretty much all things pertaining to Santana. He said he would talk to her mom about my desire to apply to the program, but I hadn't heard anything about it since we last talked about is. As far as me and Nas'...romantic situation, he didn't make it seem like we had to sneak around, so I'm assuming he had that under control.
On top of that, I didn't even know if I would be a free woman in 6 months. Tabitha strongly encouraged me to live my life as I normally would, but there was too much pessimism lingering in the back of my head for me to do that. It bothered me that so much in my life was in the hands of other people. It made me feel like I didn't have a firm grasp on my own decisions and everything I wanted to do was contingent on someone else.
It was currently 12:23pm and my only obligation for the day was group at 2:30. I loved that I had every Thursday off, as every other day of the week was packed with errands or exhibit planning.
My phone lit up on the comforter and I saw I had a text from Nassau.
You want me to pick you up?
I think I'm gonna walk. It's too early right now, anyway.
That's okay. You can finally show me your apartment.
No boys allowed 🚫🙅🏾♀️🍆
Good thing I'm a man.
I wouldn't know.
I can prove it to you if you want.
I felt my cheeks heat up at what he insinuated and I threw my phone back on the bed. But I was proud of myself for not feeling absolutely repulsed by the though of a dick for once. I closed my laptop and decided to get ready early. I had more than an hour to kill, so I opted for an extra long shower and full skincare routine.
After I got out of the shower, I packed a small bag with different nude color undergarments. I was going to Charlie's apartment after my group session so she could fit me for the fashion design contest she entered us in. I wasn't exactly sure what this competition entailed, but I was the one to encourage her to follow her gut, so I would support her in any way I could.
I locked the door behind me and started my walk to the coffee shop.
*
"I wanna try something different today," I told Orien as I scanned the menu above his head. "What do you recommend?"
"I don't drink none of this shit. Give me some water and I'm good."
"Watch your mouth! Just surprise me," I said, turning to find a table in the empty cafe.
"Wait, did you talk to that girl that came in here looking for you?"
"No," I said, turning back, "Why you ask?"
"She came back looking for you."
"Again? What did she say this time?" The first time Fallon came looking for me here did nothing more but irritate me. Now, it was kind of giving stalker. She just saw me two days ago in court and had nothing to say then. Why was she pursuing me this hard?
