Running to You (LOTR- Legolas and O/C)

Ch. 5- Too Late For Apologies

Apologize- One Republic
Stargazing (ft. Justin Jesso)-Kygo
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   The rest of that day I spent wandering about
Riverdell. I had my belongings packed for the journey ahead, though I do not ever carry much anyways. Always travel light. The hobbits went off their own way, Aragorn had some matters to attend to with Lord Elrond, and I do not know where the others are. Not that I really cared. I had not spoken to Legolas since this morning and it's nearly dusk by now. I was conflicted. I missed him dearly everyday, but I hated him for leaving. I still wanted answers but by now was it even worth it? Was it going to be worth talking about all those years left wondering why? To be perfectly honest, perhaps it was for the best things were left unsaid. We had a task to complete and it was no time for feelings...

    I had just turned the corner when I ran into someone, my head smacking into their stomach. I stumble backwards and almost trip until a pair of hands grab my arms and pull me towards whomever it was that I had run in to.

   "Oh I'm so sorry! I wasn't-" I stopped mid sentence when I looked up into a pair of familiar ice blue eyes. "S-sorry Legolas.."

"No, I am sorry. For everything."

"Legolas you left me. No goodbye, no explanation, you just left. You were my best friend... You and my brother were all I had left when I lost the boys and Thorin and you left me."

"Ari I wish it was that simple.. but it's not. I cannot tell you for your protection."

"Fucks sake Legolas now you're worried about my safety? Well isn't that just grand?! I looked for you for forty years! I asked and asked, hell I almost went to your father for answers but Aragorn talked me out of it."

  We stare at each other in silence for quite some time. I was angry, no furious. What couldn't he tell me? Was it really that important that he'd rather throw our friendship away?

   "Im tur- ú- díhen- cin (I can not forgive you)," I muttered. I could feel the tears at the corners of my eyes. "It's too late for apologies."

I could see the sudden shift in his eyes. No more were they hopeful and bright. Now they were cold and emotionless. A chill ran down my spine as it reminded me too much of his father's. Silence enveloped us. I waited to see if he had anything more to say but it was evident he would not speak of this more. I did not know or want to say anything more. Slowly I reached a hand up to cup his face but he stops me. His hand wraps around mine and he lowers my arm. With one squeeze he then walks away. My chest felt like it was about to explode, so many emotions were being bottled up and my heart seemingly broke into even more pieces than it already was. I knew better than to think he'd give me an explanation, that I'd get closure.

   My mind was in a million different places by the time I had returned to my bedroom. Elios was sound asleep on the bed. As quietly as I could I climbed in next to him and draped my arm over him. He sighed heavily as if he was relieved I was back and had been wondering where I went off to. I smiled at him as I gently stroked he soft black fur. My eyelids began to feel heavier and heavier as time went on and eventually I was able to drift off into sleep.