Atelophobia (TW soulmate AU)

Chapter 31: Interlude VIII

*Stiles*

* Melissa and Deaton are mates. 

* Scott's dad is a gigantic douchebag (That's a given)

* Scott had an older sister he never got to meet. 

* Because of not writing his mate and his behavior Deaton realized similarities between Scott's and Derek's situations.

* Allison wanted control over Scott for selfish reasons and gain

*Allison wants to kill me and has since we probably met. 

Scott's life came crashing down in a singular conversation because, of course, it did. Honestly,  it all just makes me angry. So angry that I burst into tears. I break down. I just don't understand. His world crumbled once, maybe twice if you could his dad leaving. I know mine has crumbled and crashed around me since my mom died until I met Peter. But it's still falling even if not as fast. 

The whole "conversation" was him giving me an excuse/explanation. He only blurted out a sorry because of the silence that drug on while I was trying to process anything. 

Hell, I still am. 

I'm not even sure if Scott meant his sorry because he jumped straight into wanting to try being friends again. Don't get me wrong I would love to get back to, but I don't even know if I can trust him right now, let alone myself. That's why I told him small steps. Practically baby steps. I think personally, that I need to trust him first before we can be friends. I'm also still kicking myself up about not noticing sooner. Both Chris and Peter are doing their best to remind me that it's not my fault. That I was recovering from the Nogitsune and Donovan situations. That I was spiraling due to my perception of the world, myself, and the people around me. My thoughts on mates not being helpful when I was just surrounded by them constantly. 

Honestly, I think I have a bad habit of pushing my own processing thoughts away or flipping attention to the negative. I think before Scott and I take that step in rekindling a friendship, I need to just process everything. 

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Scott went home last night as to not worry Melissa more and inform her of the day's events. So it's kind of converting to see a phone call from him so early in the morning. 

"Hello?" 

"Hey, I have a real quick question for you." 

"Yes?"

"Do you think you can help me find another Alpha or another pack that can either take me or potentially let my pack join theirs?"

Back to being the researcher. He's lucky that I was planning to go see Peter again today. I can talk with Talia then. 

"I can try. I'll let you know if anything happens."

I hang up rolling back over. Before dealing with this headache I would like to try to get a little more shut-eye.