The secret

Horrible kids

Ash's POV
Luke pinches my side and kisses my cheek and says babe were here. I grab my things along with everyone else. We have a 3 hour drive to their house. We get our bags and their is a driver that is holding the sign "5SOS" so we walk over there and we get to ride in a fucking limo! We get in the limo and it's like beds for seats so I fall on a bed and then Luke grabs the blanket and cuddles on the bed and then he starts spooning me and he says Ash is this ok and I said it's fine and he starts kissing my neck and I just smile and tears fall out of my eyes and Luke says babe what's wrong why are you crying? Was it me- I stop him with a kiss and I said I'm just happy, I love you so much and then he starts crying and he said Ash I love you so much and I will give you the whole world more than the whole world the fucking universe. Mikey says mate get a room and then Cal hops on top of Mikey and starts kissing him and he says Mikey we can fuck louder than they can and Luke's cheeks have turned bright red. I said you two are a couple and Mikey said yeah. Cal said is there a problem and I said no I just never thought that you two would be gay.... Mikey said its ok Ash! We all start laughing and we fell asleep.
Luke's POV
I wake up and we are there. Ash is shaking really bad so I hold him closer and he wakes up and I tell the lads were here. The driver brings our bags in and I see Ash he is shaking even more than before and I'm scared and he grabs my arm and he says Luke, um.. I don't like meting new people because of the bullying and sometimes I can't breathe cause I'm having a anxiety attack and Mikey and Cal hear that and Cal says it's ok Ash just remember to breathe we can tell them your name for you ok. I said thanx. We walk in and the 1D lads come over and shake our hands some give us a hug and I see Ash looking a little bit off its like he's trying to get ignored by them on purpose. Louis says that we need to say our names and something about ourself so I start, Hi my name is Luke Hemmings I'm 16 and I FUcKINg LOVE PENGUINS! Hi I'm Calum, I'm 17 and I Play bass. And IM NOT ASIAN! Hi my name is Michael Clifford and I'm 17 and I love to dye my hair. Ash doesn't speak he just looks at the ground and then Harry said you beside Luke what's you name and he stares at the ground and says Ashton Irwin, they laugh at him and I wanted to punch them but we just met so I can't. Harry asks how old are you Ash says 18 and What do you like to do or love, Ash says I like drums and I like to draw. I heard a snicker and he just stares at the ground and I give him my hand and he squeezes it really hard, I can tell he is having a panic attack. Then they all go around their group and they said things about themselves and Harry said its time to eat.
Ash's POV
I knew they were going to laugh so why do I even try. We go over to eat but I'm not hungry, so I sit down at the table and Zayn said does little Ashy need someone to get his food as well and I was about done and Cal slapped him and I felt better. Luke sits down beside me and says Babe you need to eat something and I told him I'm not hungry and he says Bullshit Ash you look starving and everyone stops what their doing and looks at us. This is already a disaster, why do they even want me here, I excuse myself and run to the bathroom. I take out my phone and call my mom and she picks up and she says Hi baby how are you and I start crying. She says Ashton what is wrong and I said mom I can't do this I don't fit in here, I can't breathe the anxiety is getting worse and she said remember to breathe and it will be ok and I asked about Harry and Lauren and she said they are good and I asked if I could talk with them and Laur comes to the phone first and she is the only one who knows about all of my problems.I start crying more and I said Laur it hurts to much and she started crying and she said keep me my promise don't leave me I need youAsh and I love you and don't listen to them ok and I said Laur guess what and she said what? I said Luke is dating me and I can't believe it I still think it's a dare or a joke but it feels so real I want to tell him him but I'm scared and Laur was screaming and she said your not ready yet so don't tell him and she told me she is 10 months clean and I'm so proud of her.
Luke's POV
Everyone is laughing at Ash as he leaves and I said ok all of you stop fucking laughing at him, he has high anxiety and before he came here he didn't even speak at all, he had a stutter and I swear to god if you hurt him I will hurt you and everyone just looked at me and Harry said sorry and they weren't laughing at him Niall did something funny so I ran to him. I hear him say I think Luke dating me is just a dare or a trick, I want to trust him but I'm scared and he didn't stutter at all I was proud of him and I hear him done talking, I knock on the door and he says who is it I say Luke and he said please come in. I said if my love for you is a dare or a trick than why would I do this. I pick him up and start kissing him and caressing his body all over the play and he is moaning. He says Luke I love you so much, I said I love you more and he said not possible and I said sweetie I do and then Ash pushes me down and starts pushing me down and kisses me. He starts to undo my jeans and he takes off my underwear as well but before we go anywhere else he locks the door and then he starts jerking me off and I said Fuck Ashhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! He stops and then he starts sucking and I said Luke oh god Luke don't fucking stop, Luke I'm so close and then He comes in his mouth and he looks freaked out by that. I feel really fucking bad and he looks like throwing up so I take him to the bathroom and he said can you get me water and he says sorry.

Ash's POV
Luke wanted me to feel good and I ruined it, he comes back with water, Cal walked in and said that the lads want us out there.

Luke and I walk out holding hands, I look at the ground until Luke lifted my chin and gave me a fucking amazing kiss, we fought but he won and it was amazing.

He said "You're beautiful."
That made me smile, we walk out and they all apologize to me.

I say it's ok and then they said that they want to hear us play one of our songs, so we did an autistic version of SLSP, they loved it.

I went to get up and as soon as I walked, I fell down and everything became black and Luke said "ASH!"