The secret

Somethings are better Left Alone

Ash's POV
I feel strange inside its like the pang feeling in my chest that burns, its almost like I can feel my heart shattering. I can't breathe when this happens its like all the oxygen is leaving me making be not be able to breathe it hurts. I can't stand this it hurts way to much anymore, why am I still breathing, walking and seeing? Why aren't I dead? This is getting way to much for me to handle, Its knocking down my walls and then you found me, I was insecure and trying to hide from it all. You gave me a kiss but was it to make me breathe, I'm fading fast let the wind carry me away from everything that hurts me in this world so I can find peace and comfort that I've been longing for and needing for to see. Your touch is like fire and it makes my body into one because when your with me I never felt more alive because in my reality I'm just a walking skeleton. I love you but I'm afraid the world wouldn't love how we love each other. I need to sketch on my canvas I only use red to make the picture. Its just lines but you wouldn't understand when blood covers my hands. Wow this is fucking deep I think to myself, I was writing for English class. We had to write a poem about love and that's how I view it because everything that loves me is just lying to me. My mind thinks I need my razor and I think I need it too. Fuck I am so screwed up no one will ever like me Luke is just acting like he does because of pity and I fucking hate pity. I just need to drum it makes me feel so free, like I can release all of my pain and anger. My phone vibrates and I see it Luke and his text says hey bby I luv you band practice is @ Cal's and is @ 5:00 k. I reply: Ok luv you more Kissesxx :). So I hop in the shower and put my contacts in, I pick out my Bring Me The Horizon sweater, black skinnies and vans. I grab my phone and went to my car and drove to Calum's. I walk in and I see everyone is crying and I start panicking and Cal said Ash our dreams are coming true Louie Tomlinson from 1D CALLED US AND WANTS US TO GO TOUR WITH THEM!!!!!!! I was freaking out I texted my mom and she was really happy. Luke came over and kissed me, He said we leave tomorrow morning at like 2am! It was really excited and they said that their management would take all of our instruments for us and would drive us to the 1D house. This made my day even better. Calum gave me a hug and said you made this possible Ash and That I'm sorry I ever bullied you. I said Its ok and we went to eat pizza and relax.
Luke's POV
I couldn't wait to see Ash because Cal said he has fucking awesome news and I am so excited to hear what it is so I call Cal and ask if he wants to go to the mall and do shit. We always go to the mall bitches so don't judge me Becky. So Cal came and he said are you and Ash dating or are you sticking with the dare. I said its a dare and that I am acting anyways. Cl said that I'm a really good actor and we walk in the mall. We go to get some vas and shit then eat pizza and Mikey met us there. I texted Ash when to met us at Cal's house and then we drove back to Cal's. Ash came and Cal said that we are going on tour with 1D and I can't believe our dream is coming true I just can't believe it this just made me even more happy and I hold Ash and kiss him all over and he laughs.
Calum's POV
So I went on twitter and I saw that I had a DM from FUCKING LOUIE TOMLINSON LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!!!! I was so happy when I read what is said so I called Mikey and told him. I can't fucking wait, then I go to the mall with Luke and Mikey. We are at my house waiting for Ash and then I tell them and pretend to say sorry to Ash because no one could ever like that ugly fag. So I order pizza an we chill and watch Netflix.
Mikey's POV
I was playing xBox when Cal called so we talked about Ashton and Luke and I think it is really sad how they are so mean the Ash he never did anything wrong. I get dressed and walk to the mall to meet Luke and Cal. We shop in the Vans department and then go eat. We go back to his house and Ash comes and Cal tells us were going on tour with 1D. THis has always been my dream I can't wait to leave this shit town and tour the world. So cal orders pizza and we watch Netflix. Then everyone one leaves and its just me an Cal. I ask him if I could just spend the night but go home and pack then come back and hangout. I really cannot wait!