Love and Life || A Poetry

011 : THE LOVE I CAN'T GIVE

I can't force myself to love you,
She's the one, it's not you.
I tried to love you like I did to her,
But when I try, I'm like throwing myself from the tower.
I once said I'm the thorns of that Roses,
You said you're willing to get hurt and have bruises.
I made you fall into my garden,
You shouldn't have, because you will be weakened.

Tell me that I'm a jerk,
So that I can know how to punish myself.
Find another man, not myself,
You deserve the love that you can't find into me.
I don't wish to hold you romantically,
I just wanted to treat you like a lady.
Surely I am a selfish man,
But I don't want you to fall in that certain man.

If ever you think you're special,
Don't seek for someone to treat you the same.
You grow from someone's sweetest lies.
I couldn't tell you how I get tired,
When the sun rises, I felt guilty,
When the sun sets down, I felt empty.
I'm perfect for you... a perfect knife to kill you.
I made your heart break 'cause I couldn't love you.

Don't tell me it was your fault,
Because that's not what I thought.
Forgive me for my sweet lies,
All I know was to hold you dearly.
Love yourself before leaving me,
I'm giving up, on trying to love you.
I'm a jerk who came into your life,
Lay low, and find the right guy worthy for your fight.
I can't give you the love you want
Instead, bruises and thorns were pinned into your heart.

Don't fall into my garden,
I'm a flower full of thorns.
You will get hurt and will go home with bruises,
I can't give you the care I once posses.
Let go of my hand, I am found guilty,
You're always free, I can't love you baby.

I treasured you like I promised,
I hold your hand like how I hold my guitar.
But I did not wish for you to fall for me
And suddenly say you fall for me
'Cause I can't give that love you want from me
I can't reciprocate it romantically.

Let's end everything here,
Even if we only started to be closer.
Burn the papers we used to write there,
And turn it into ashes, in that, it's totally over.

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