⚠︎ tw: sexual assault trauma & self harm
I allowed the gown to fall as soon as door clicked shut. Nate was gone but his presence was still here. My heart pounded loudly in my chest and I was unable to forget him. I felt this tig towards him. An invisible force pulling me towards him.
He was irresistible as well as unforgettable. I can't forget him or the night we spent together and after everything that had happened to me I need something to take my mind off it. This shooting was that thing and after this I need more. Maybe I need Nate.
My whole body agreed as I thought of going to Nate to forget the darkness that enveloped me in the forests. My nipples were perked up and my panties were damp with fresh arousal.
Shit.
This shouldn't be happening. My body reacting like this to the thought of Nate is frightening. I don't want anything to happen again. I want to go to work without stealing glances at him knowing I have done dirty more than once.
I stepped away from the mirror which reflected how desperate and responsive I was to Nathaniel Sinclair. The tug was irresistible. Sitting down on the couch I ate the lunch I had ordered, now cold and tasteless in the plate but I gulped it down. We were supposed to start the shooting soon. Sydney and Bridget and all the people would be here soon.
This time I wore a maroon gown with plunging neckline, stopping right on top of my tummy. The cleavage tattoo which I got just yesterday - once again to distract myself - stood proudly out of the neckline. On the back it covered most of the skin.
"Oh God you look so beautiful in this dress" Bridget the head of design department at Maroon gushed looking at me. "I never knew these gowns would so beautiful once we wear them" I have her a tight smile.
"C'mon let's go" I nodded and walked out in the heat along with them. Who the hell plan outdoor shooting in this hot weather. The narrow alleys of canyons welcomed us and we walled to our previous spot. Everyone jad gathered here amd so did Nate.
He looked so handsome wearing the blue polo shirt. Sunglasses sat on top of his nose and he carelessly stood beside a cart, crossing one leg over the other.
"Take the position" I took my position.
"Get set. Go"
Click
Click
Click
I don't know how but shootings with Maroon and their employees are always so easy to do and I always feel good. I enjoy the thrill of shooting like I once enjoyed them at the start of my career. There is not enough cruelty here to take away our charms.
"Get the wind" huge fans were placed in front of me. My dress as well as my hair floated in air. The two slits on either side of gown pulled out my legs as I posed in the artificial wind.
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