Not Your Best Friend

Feelings: Tell me Everything I Feel is a Lie!

Tameka

I could not believe I was an engaged woman. Kyle asked me to marry him, and at first, I was worried it was just because we found out I was pregnant, but he promised that was not it. I said yes, and now we would get married and become parents. This was amazing. We told our parents; Trey was the only person we had to tell. The last time we spoke was the day he found out about us. I called him to come over, and he finally arrived. After letting him in, I give him a glass of tea, take mine, and sit on the couch.

"So, you wanted to talk.""Yeah, I did, "I say"Okay, talk" he say "Well, I have some news.""Did you and Kyle break up? I'm sorry if he hurt you, but you deserve better anyway," he says"What? No," I say, taken aback just the opposite, we are engaged.""No, you can't be.""Yes, we are.""No, Tameka, I am in love with you, "he says, shocking me. "Trey, I don't know what to say, but I'm sorry I didn't return the feelings I love, Kyle.""No, you can't really be serious," he says, sounding agitated"I love him." I say.

"Maybe this will change your mind," he says. He kisses me, and I try to push him off me, but he's stronger and pushes me back on the couch. Finally needing air, he breaks the kiss."Tell me you don't feel that love between us.""I don't," I say, trying to get from under him"You must know what I'm feeling isn't a lie.""Maybe it is Trent because you sound crazy," I say, gathering as much strength as I have to push him off of me. He tries to kiss me again, and I finally push him off. We are both glaring at each other; we don't notice Kyle coming in. "What the hell is this?" Kyle yells, and Trey looks between the two of us. I do not know how much he saw, but I hope he didn't get the wrong idea."Kyle babe, it's not what it looks like."

"Oh yes, it is," Trent says, and I glare at him, hoping Kyle doesn't believe him."Oh, I know it is. It looks like you were kissing my fiancé against her will."I sigh, and thank god Kyle knew I wouldn't cheat on him"Maybe it wasn't against her will. She just needed help to see who she really loves," he says, walking toward Kyle. I step in front of Kyle, not wanting him to hurt our used-to-be best friend."You're delusional, Trent," I say"No, I'm not Tammy. Can't you see he doesn't deserve you?""Well, too bad we're getting married, and she's having my child"You're pregnant," Trent says, looking at me. "Yes I am. That's what we were going to tell you: we are getting married and having a baby; you were supposed to be the best man and God-parent, but now I don't think so. I think you should leave." I say

He doesn't say anything. He leaves, slamming the door behind him. I was just glad that Kyle showed up when he did."You okay?""No," I say, shaking my head.

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Nani

We were having a movie night. Avan, Jackson, and I. It has been good but awkward going back to how it was before we decided to add benefits to our friendship. Avan sometimes shook his head when we all hung out, looking at Jackson and me. I tried not to discuss my feelings for Jackson because I knew it got on Avan's nerves. Right in the middle of the movie, Avan receives a call and leaves before he does, though Jackson gets up and follows him out. And I hear Avan say you need to tell her how you feel. Jackson comes back in, and we sit on the sofa watching the movie. And I'm kind of mad because they picked a horror movie, and now Avan isn't here to watch it. At a scary part, I jumped, and Jackson pulled me into his arms. I'm not going to lie. It felt good to be in his arms, but I could already see where this was going. He turned my face towards his and started to kiss me. The next thing I knew, we were on my sofa half naked, and I pushed him off of me.

"I can't do this again, Jack.""Why you didn't have a problem doing it before?""But I did." I say "My feelings for you run deep, and I deserve to be in a committed relationship," I sigh and he drags his hand down his face and sits there quietly. "It's clear that's not what you want." I say breaking the silence "I just don't want to lose you." He replies "You won't. We can still be friends." "Really," he says because when I was making plans with Rita, you got jealous and didn't speak to me for a week."Well, it will be different. I'll try harder not to let my jealousy mess up our friendship.""Is a friendship all you want?" he says "You know it's not." I say "What do you want from me? You told me you were attracted to me. We have great sex but also great everything because we are friends , First" " I want a relationship." I say