✔️My Magical Stranger// GeminiFourth, FirstKhaotung

*42* Difficult talk

The day was gloomy and sad as his thoughts.  Fourth Nattawat stood by the window and looked out.  It was dark, so dark that the room was dim.  Normally, under such circumstances, Nattawat would have turned on the light, but now he was so absorbed in his gloomy thoughts that the darkness suited him.  The darkness seemed to reflect his mood perfectly.  It was pouring rain.  Fourth sighed heavily and moved away from the window.  He still remembered that P'Zee had made them write diaries, and what had happened recently was definitely worth writing down.  Fourth wondered if someday, maybe in a few years, he would come back to that diary, take it in his hand, read it, and laugh at all his worries and fears?  He really wanted to hope so.

He made himself a bowl of cereal, which he only partially ate.  He took the notebook he used as a diary from his desk drawer, chose a red pen this time, and began to write.

"I don't know what to think about it.  Iris is pregnant.  It still doesn't reach me.  I feel like someone else is experiencing this, not me.  It's impossible for me to be the father.  I'm still so young!  In our world, I just turned 19, although Gemi and I are actually 21, only we've been told that the two years we spent on Gaia II don't count, so we're officially still 19.

I don't know how to react.  I feel like I'm doing something wrong, that I'm making mistakes all the time.  I wish I could protect the people I love, but I feel helpless.

P'Zee says it's not my fault that I did everything I could, but I still feel like it wasn't enough. Did I do absolutely everything? If so, why didn't I protect Iris from being attacked by the woman who raised  me and first?

Oh, it wasn't a woman, it was a demon.  That's how it was explained to us.

I felt devastated and guilty when I found out how Iris got pregnant.  This should never happen!  Never!

I know I shouldn't be angry at Iris and my mom, I know how much each of us wants to love and be loved and I know that what my mom and Iris have in common is the same thing that Gemini and I have.  Why did this piss me off so much?  I don't understand why I acted like an asshole, I don't understand it!!!  I am the last person who has the right to tell others what to do and who to love.  So why did this upset me so much?!

Yeah...

Because of my dad...

I don't even know who he is.  Or where he is.

I've heard rumors, but can I believe it?  It's crazy!  How could it be possible for me to be the son of the Archangel Michael himself?  I'm completely ordinary... I'm the son of an archangel?  Can archangels have children?

I read somewhere that yes, they can take human form, so I guess it's possible.

But then what my mother did was very unfair and dishonest to my father... Didn't they love each other?  If that were the case, then why did both me and First come into the world?  What our parents had in common must have been sincere, so why aren't they together anymore?  And isn't my mom's relationship with Iris cheating?  I guess that's why it hurts me so much..."

Fourth didn't get a chance to finish writing.

He heard a knock on the door.  He closed the notebook, put it back in the drawer, and went to open it.

Three people stood in front of the door: Gemini, Iris and Mrs. April Puitrakul.  Fourth hesitated for a moment about slamming the door in their faces.  He didn't feel like talking to them at all, it was hard for him to even look his own boyfriend in the eye at the moment.  He felt embarrassed and guilty about his earlier behavior.  He knew it was very inappropriate and that he shouldn't have done it.