See You At The Sunrise (Villagracia series #1)

Chapter 24

Chapter 24

Seeing him happy without me..seeing him graduating without me. But I'm happy for him. Hindi 'ko kayang patawarin ang sarili 'ko. I won't let him love me again even its hurt. I hurt him, because he doesn't deserve me.

Nandun ako noong graduation niya, He didn't saw me, nasa gilid lang ako at proud na proud para sakan'ya. He's Summa Cum laude with a latin honor, best in arts and consistent dean lister.

"I'm proud of you babe..you did well without me..I love you for the last time." I whispered to myself while look at him from afar.

My family ruined his family. Tita Kariel is his dad mistress, the reason my they Business got bankrupt and the reason why his ate wendy need to sacrifice her own happiness and get married to the very young age, just to save thier family. Nag dusa sila dahil sa ginawa ni mamita sakanila. Is this karma of my family? Bakit sa akin napunta.

Now tell me, paano niya ako nagawang mahalin sakabila ng lahat? Its that true that just using me? Para makaganti? Masyado.. masyado ba akong nag pa kampante na mahal niya ako.. hindi 'ko alam kung kanino ako maniniwala. Pagod na rin ako.

One day I realized there's no more Sunrise with him. No more light in the dark, No more Joshin. No more love. No more forever. They all gone.

Kung gaano siya kabilis dumating sa buhay 'ko, ganun din siya kabilis nawala sa buhay 'ko. Its hard to let him go. I was so stupid!

I don't deserve his love as well He don't deserve my love. Tatanggapin 'ko ang galit niya. Masyadong 'ko siyang minahal, binuhos 'ko lahat ng pag mamahal sakan'ya. And now, I'm here alone. Without him, keep growing in the pain, and learning.

But life goes on. Isn't part of life? Ang masaktan?

Sadness relazation in life is we focus in one thing and unsure future.

Tama na 'yun, okay na 'yun, thats enough love that at least I felt in the short time. I don't see myself love again like I used before. Now its for myself..

I want to new beginning and built to my own. After I graduate at UST-LEGAZPI in Bachelor of Science Business administration major in management. After we broke up I cut my connection to my mamita and live with my father side. My parents didn't update in my life here, they thought I was okay. But I'm pretending.

I go back in manila to continue my journey and career. Wala na rin akong connection kay Joshin at sa mga kaibigan.

Dad Benjo leave his life in legazpi para samahan ako sa manila, si dally tinanggap ang offer ni tita Kariel na mag aral sa U.S., si thea after she graduated umalis na din siya ng bansa. Madami na talaga nag bago. Lahat ng bago.

There's no permanent in this life, changing are constant. They all temporary, the come and go, but life keep going. Masakit iwan ang isang lugar na madaming alala, pero mas masakit manatili sa mga alala. We can't go back but we can look back.

"Tita Kariel.." I called her. Still she don't have family.. and I'm still mad at her. After what I knew that's she's a mistress before, nalaman din namin na may anak siya sa daddy ni joshin, na itinago niya sa aming lahat, that was big revealation.

Parang hindi siya tumatanda, I don't know what she bring here, I should be mad to her. Naka sira siya ng pamilya. But what the reason? Wala ng rason pang magalit dahil tapos na, at nasalo 'ko na ang karma ng pamilya namin. How unlucky I am.

I look at her coldly. "I'm here to personally apologize..I know its too late.." She sighed "Hindi dapat ikaw ang nag hihirap ngayon.. I'm sorry..cally."

Biglang nanubig ang mga mata 'ko dahil sa luhang unti unting tumutulo. I can't look to her.

"Why? Tita Kariel..your respected wowan, educated person, tinitingala ng lahat, even me, how could..do that? Sumira ka ng pamilya.." Nanghihinang Saad 'ko.