When We Were Younger - TOM KAULITZ

One more normal conversation again?

"Morning" i said coldly while walking in the kitchen with the pjs on from last night.I see some waffles made on the table and, Tom and Bill laying down on the couch watching TV.Right, i forgot about them.

I grab my bag and get my cigarettes & my lighter.I also grabbed an ashtray from the counter and started walking to the balcony untill i heard a voice from behind me say.

"Aren't you gonna eat?" Tom, oh.

"No,im not hungry." I reply back and go to the balcony, grab a cig from the pack and start smoking it.I was sitting on the chair and looking at the city, beautiful.I took another puff from my cig untill someone spoke up from behind me, again, Tom.

"Hi." I say,

"Hey?" He says sounding confused,why the fuck are you confused.

"Sorry, this is a bit out of nowhere, huh?" I ask him finishing my cigarette.

"I know it's you, Y/n..So yeah,it is a bit out of nowhere." Well hi stranger.

"I just wanted to talk to you." I say looking at him while he stands there and then sits down on the chair next to me.

"About what..?"

"Anything." One more normal conversation again?

"I miss talking to you." I add after, brushing my hair with my fingers.

...

"Don't." Oh.

"I really wanted you to be different."

Please take me back.

"Stop." Huh.

"Your hurting yourself."  I bit my bottom lip as he said that.

"If it means getting what we had back,then
i dont care."

"That wont happen. You know that."

why not.

"Stop wasting your time." I look at him and then i look down.I get up and just stand there looking at him like an idiot.

"I miss you." I walk away from him, we are on the 6th floor so i just look down from the balcony.Woah.

"Y/n, everyone was worried about you you know?You can't just disappear!You really hurt a lot of people."

"Wheres the old you! Why can't the old you come back!?Come back, even as a shadow, even as a dream.I want the old you back y/n!"

Oh Tom.

"Tom, i dont know what to tell you.I disappear sometimes,its my thing.You just,you hurt me so bad you ripped every ounce of love and support even generosity i had out of me then you come back the second i start to feel better. it makes no sense its almost like we are still stuck on the same page. you know ill never be over it, you knew i spent every second fighting for you when i left. you know i let you treat me like a dog begging to be taken for a walk and shown off. you come back and you can try to promise you will change but i know you, i know how you act and ive let the same version of you back in one too many times. every time i leave its still the same you with no new improvments. i wish to move on i wish for everything to be okay but then if it doesnt hurt and i start to forget who will hold the weight of what happened to us? it has always been me and i know youve forgetten and moved on so it has to be me. i cant let it go yet i cant leave it so unfinished, you dont know the amount of time and energy ive spent trying to make us work. i know you look for other people but i still look for you in everyone i meet. i just cant let this go i cant forget you yet"

I turned around and ran to my room.

short chapter :<