When We Were Younger - TOM KAULITZ

The new begginging

April 9th 2006

Six days ago i started making my own music.I think its time for me to come back,Ellen is my biggest supporter at the moment.She hypes me up about writing my first song, its called " I Know You " ( by Faye Webster, pretend the song is made in 2006 ) , im starting to write songs about me,me and Tom Kaulitz,me and my current boyfriend Ethan,me and my best friend Ellen.Ethan asks me who the song is about, im curious how doesn't he know about Tom Kaulitz and me in 2005.But im actually glad he doesnt, Ellen and i still live together tho.

Im 16, 16 and living in Canada with my bestfriend and boyfriend,Tom Kaulitz seems to have forgotten about me already.Well, it has been 9 months since i said goodbye, no wonder.But Bill always has to say stuff about me in every interview.Im happy he didn't forget about me, beacuse im slowly coming back.My song is coming out in a day,im really excited about that,i got with Ethan in January.I met him at a icecream shop, im sure never talking to him about my old band,my ex, my past.He doesn't need to know,i am also starting to loose feelings a little. Everytime we go somewhere he always has a girl begging for his number,i mean yeah hes attractive and hot but he doesn't even love me!I don't feel loved by him,i miss him,the old,sweet Ethan. I need to talk to him about that,someday.A week, two weeks?Im not ready for this relationship to end,yeah he doesn't treat me right.Even Ellen says that, but they aren't lying,i mean.He does hit me sometimes,he does call me mean names,he doesn't love me,im his toy,his pet.Not like a puppy or a cat.A real human girl that he claims as his pet,if you know what i mean.I just can't stop loving him, yea my love was bigger for Tom Kaulitz but Ethan is different, in a bad way.I still love Tom Kaulitz, im not using Ethan to get over him,i just cant stop loving both of them.If someone asked me to choose between them id be gone.I cannot choose.

I woke up by the pain in my shoulder,

"Wake up you slut." Ethan yells.

"Sorry im awake,whats up?"

"Its 11:37 PM! You slept the whole day you lazy whore."

"What!Oh my song is about to be released!" I jump out of the bed to hug Ethan but he just pushes me and doesn't let me.

"What the hell did you just try to do?"

"Im so sorry Ethan i didn't mean to."

"Go to your own house now,your Ellen is waiting for you." He throws my shirt at me,waiting for me to dress up.

"Can't i have some privacy?" I ask him,

"Shut up,ive saw your naked body a million times.Why do you even need privacy?Im your boyfriend." He grins at me,

"No,you cant have privacy." He adds at the end, well you gotta do what you gotta do..

I turn around so my back is facing him,taking off my shirt and putting the shirt he gave me faster than a speed light.

"Im done."

"Okay?So?Go home?"

"Arent you gonna drive me?I could get kidnapped now." My smile fades away,

"Fucking brat." He says under his breath,grabbing his keys.

Time skip - at Ellen & Y/ns