When We Were Younger - TOM KAULITZ

Dear everyone

We didnt see anything but blood on the floor and a long paper on the table,it almost touched the floor.It was full with writings,we ran to the table and started reading what it said.

The paper :

Dear everyone whos reading this,

probably my friends and my ex boyfriend.Please read this outloud beacuse its meant for everyone but mostly Tom.Give the paper to Tom
and tell him to read it out loud.

That was the first thing on the paper,i passed the paper to Tom and told him to read it outloud.

Tom,did you really love me or did
i love you enough to pretend that
you loved me as much as i loved
you?I waited for you,i wanted to
wait until you came here and told
me its all a dream,it hurt to realise
you never would.I want to hate you,
i want to cry as i punch your stomach
begging why,why?I want to know if
every " i love you " was just a lie.
If they weren't lies,what happend?
Was it me?Was it you?I dont think
you can ' fall out of love ' i tried and
worked so hard to hold onto your
love but, you gave up.I want to
hate you,but i can't.We didn't say
goodbye, and a part of me knows
and believes that we are coming
back.Its like, you killed all the
butterflies in my stomach but
i still love you.If you wanted to
stay,you would.Know that
loving you was never a waste.I
used to watch sunsets with you,
but now i watch them alone.The
end of us is also a begginging of
us,we were and then we werent.
I know i can do better,but im
still here wondering what if.
When i come back, just know
i still want us.Not so fast tho.
When you cheated,did you think
about everything or only her..?
I still can't believe how quickly
we went from everything to
nothing.Some nights i wonder
if it hurt you as much as it
hurt me,just so you know
that everytime i was sad,i
knew I could come back to
you and just laugh.Now that
im writing this,i realize im gonna
miss you,im gonna miss your voice,
im gonna miss your personality,im
gonna miss your dreadlocks,im gonna
miss you cute laugh,im gonna miss
your smirk,im gonna miss you.And
im sorry to tell you this but im running
away,coming back soon.Our memories
will always stay in my heart.I understand
i wasn't the one for you, Incase you still
dont know this,you are you and thats
enough.Thank you for being exactly
who you are and for giving me a
relationship ive wanted and needed
my whole life.Tho you owe me sleep,
so much sleep.You know what?I know
that our story isnt over just yet,that
someday we'll meet again and finally
get it right.And i know we'll explain
eachother what really happend one
day.We'll finally understand, and
until then i hope you live your
best life,and i hope you really do all
the things you always wanted to.Too
much yet nothing happend between
us..Will you miss me when you hear
my name?One day you'll realise
how much i cared and loved.I talk
about you like we're still together.We
were both the problem,but you made
it seem like it was just me.Please if
you all want,wait for me,i need
sometime alone.I will come back soon.
All my ex boyfriends relationships
weren't like this.It was different with you
Tom Kaulitz.If we dont talk again,
remember i loved you, and i still do.
I will carry you with me until i see
you again.I wonder what i look
like in your eyes,no matter what.
I will always stand by your side,
please dont forget me and all
the things we did together.I don't
mean to be annoying about writing
all this.I just miss you all so much,also
please dont get anyone else involved
in this.I am only telling you about me
running away.

Always and Forever - Y/n ❤️