Petals

Chapter Nine

You say nothing as you make your way to the green house. You smile seeing Snape leaving the doors with... another girl. A student actually. You freeze concern feeling you at how pretty she is. Sprout joins  them you not realizing the girl had just wanted to see the babies and that's all. You make your way to the forest suddenly feeling overwhelmed and knowing you would be spotted. As you make your way past the tree line, you turned around to see all three of them laughing. Your heart sinks feeling as if you were replaced. It was already hard enough to leave your new borns at Camp Half Blood, and now you see Snape with another girl. You slide down the tree you taking out your razor. You looked at the few scars on your right wrists them slowly climbing climbing up your arm being the reason why you're wearing a long sleeve. You cut deep pressing down on the wound until crimson dropped down to the ground. You take out your fresh pack your hands shaking while you pull out a cancer stick. You puffed hard at first your tears finally making their way to the surface. You sit there for about twenty minutes trying to stable yourself. You've officially been around your mother too long. You were so distracted you didn't even hear Hagrid's footsteps. You jumped at his voice.

" You know, you always did hide from me when you got like this in the beginning."

He looks at your razor and your arm saying nothinf. He's never seen you self harm before, but he knows what to do when it comes to taking care of student. He gently pulls you up by the arm being careful not to hurt you and have you a hug. You accepted it feeling better about yourself. He puts an arm around you and guides you home. You lean against him glad to see each other's little hovel. As you two enter, he gets out the bandages, but you showed where you already healed. For some reason, the scars never go away. He puts them back and asked what happpened. You slowly open up telling him how you've seen him be with another girl and about Chiron being the father of the new borns. You didn't even get on the topic of your mother even saying her name insufferable.

" It was probably just a student, and I know you didn't get those scars over night. When did this start?"

" Months ago when mother appeared. I really don't think I have to say anything else."

" Does she know about this?"

" Yes."

He falls silent after this asking you to lay down. You did as he said almost instantly falling asleep. He notice how you didn't wake up even when nightfall came. He decides not to say anything to Snape until the morning hearing you whimper from a nightmare around seven a'clock. He sets out finding the professor in the Great Hall talking to some of his students. He sees how the girls flirt with him, and he wonders if he should really be worried. Dumbledore was surprise by his appearance but says nothing as he walks up to the professor.

" Y/n's here."

Snape's expresssion changed immediately looking around his shoulder as if expecting you to be there. Around the students, he tells him you're not doing good. He asked if she's in the infirmary, and he just tells him you're at his house. He rushes by as the girls waved him by.

" See you in class professor~"

" Not today you won't!"

They make their way to the house Hagrid explaining you've been cutting, and Snape thinks backs to that first scar feeling so stupid. Hagrid doesn't tell him about the girl nor Chiron feeling you would get angry. As they entered, you were smoking a cigarette already. Snape knew he shouldn't of let this habit go on secretly picking tobacco back up. He sits beside you knowing Hagrid had talked to him. You can't help but lay on his shoulder.

" Are you hurt?"

" No. I'm fine."

" Did you get hurt while fighting?"