About a story where a boy named Choi Beomgyu is a very close friend of Kang Taehyun.
Beomgyu hasn't realized his own feelings for Taehyun this whole years of being friends with him and this is where in he falls in love for him slowly and want to be...
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'Forever and Promises'
Beomgyu decided to write or draw, he was now at his study table with the soft fabric chair. He already felt energetic under Taehyun's care, he was like already healing. The problem is, he couldn't stop coughing, his throat felt annoyingly itchy. His fever lowered down though.
Beomgyu coughed loudly, groaning in pain and you could see anger in his eyes like he wanted to die or kill someone with his bare hands. "Haa~.." He massaged his throat, rubbing and pressing it hardly.
He tried to fight it, pressing his lips together to keep it shut. His fingers wrap around his pencil, starting to write letters carefully to make it look good. Beomgyu sighed and focused on his thoughts, writing the words with full of emotions from his heart sincerely.
' I can't help but overthink whenever you're with me, I want to stop it. Please, somebody free me from this pain and stop me from doing these bad habits but no one seemed to notice. I want to replace my negative thoughts with positive ones, i want to think that you care about me, not the one that's your forcing yourself. I hope you do notice and look after me, but this is enough and I appreciate all of it. Taehyun, will you continue to be like this? Or will you lose interest? '
Beomgyu noticed his own body were moving automatically, it wasn't him that's controlling it anymore. His eyes slowly widen in shock as he read what he wrote, was this what he thought truthfully?
His expression dropped, his lips now frowning except of smiling widely. Gosh, his overthinking is on another level if he's sick. Beomgyu purposely slammed his head on the notebook, causing a red mark to form on his forehead. He stared at the tip of his pen, the sharp end of the point capturing his attention. He blinked slowly and innocently, his pace on breathing were also slow and short. He fidgets with his other hand on the hem of his shirt, some tears forming in his eyes for some reason.
'Fuck, what if Taehyun leaves me?' Beomgyu thought, that was his biggest fear. He had to prevent Taehyun leaving his side, he feels restless and hopeless without him. The younger's presence makes him feel at ease from the very first start, the way he was the only one who always listen and give time to him.. the way he gives him accompany, happiness and comfort. He wouldn't be this bright without Taehyun, and his other closest best friends. It was them who made him likes this, mostly Taehyun.
Beomgyu gulped harshly, he could tell his lips were quivering which signals him he's emotional and about to cry. 'I like him.. no, I love him. From the very beginning.'
'I had liked him every since then but I didn't notice or pay attention to it.'
There is no way of turning back once you have fallen in love.
You can't help it, you'll fall with that person. Either you'll be blind and stupid or be smart and you'll solve it.
He felt warm wet liquid roll down his cheeks, staining on both his cheeks and on the notebook. Beomgyu looked at the ceiling to prevent his tears from falling, trying to blink it away. He kept making 'what if' questions in his mind, imaginating of Taehyun losing interest and leaving him in the dark, all alone.
More tears escape his eyes, causing him to sniff quietly and his nose turn into a shade of red.
Beomgyu heard a knock from his door, it was obvious and you could tell who was in front of the door. Before he could respond, he wiped his tears with his fingertips and pretending that something went in his eyes, rubbing it. "Come in.." he said and heard the sound of the door clicking and opening.
"I heard sniffling in here, I was worried maybe your fever went up again." Taehyun peeked through the door, his head tilting while looking at Beomgyu with his innocent round sparkly eyes.
Taehyun went in and entered the room, quietly closing the door behind him. He walked closer to Beomgyu, noticing that there were tear stains on the page of the notebook. He then glanced back at the older that was confusedly staring at him.
The younger sighed and sat on the bed, patting the spot beside him and telling Beomgyu to sit so he could talk to him properly while facing each other. Beomgyu understood and obeyed, sitting beside him while anxiously sweating.
Taehyun embraced him into a warm tight hug, his hand caressing Beomgyu's head while his fingers go through his hair. "Did you cry, hm?" he asked with a gentle sweet tone, trying to reassure the other.
Beomgyu smiled and rested his chin on Taehyun's shoulder while hugging him back, "You notice the smallest things." he sighed.
"What's wrong?" Taehyun asked worriedly, pulling away from the hug to face Beomgyu.
"I was just thinking maybe in the future, you will leave me. It's just my recent activities when I'm sick, you know.. writing, overthinking, drawing and all?" Beomgyu scoffed at his words, he felt like an attention-seeker.
"I won't, hyung.. You know that." Taehyun's expression were now sad as Beomgyu's, he was more worried that he was like this.. he also hoped it would stop soon.
"I'm scared, Taehyun.. please don't leave me." Beomgyu begged with more tears in his eyes, holding and fighting them back.
"I promise I won't leave you. Never, Beom." Taehyun smiled, cupping Beomgyu's cheeks while gently caressing it with his thumb.
"I'm not perfect.. or enough for you." Beomgyu let his tears escape and accept his defeat, hugging Taehyun tightly like he was going to go.
"Perfect.. honestly, no one is perfect. It actually depends on people whether you are perfect in their perspective, so it doesn't mean if someone called you perfect while the other disagree, you aren't perfect or the other is lying. For me, you are perfect and enough.. don't listen to others saying you aren't, please. You're enough for me, you mean so much. You're very precious to me, you know that? This is more than you think." Taehyun comforted and patted Beomgyu's back, humming a melody to lower his cries down.
"Thank you, Taehyun. So much." he said when he finally calmed down, Beomgyu buried his face in the crook of the other's neck, closing his eyes shut because it felt heavy.
"You're welcome, I'll be always here for you and gladly comfort when you need it. Remember that." Taehyun also closed his eyes while they both feel each other's warmth, enjoying another moment of them that will be soon a missed memory.
