Obsessive (AMBW)

Act XIX

Lucas

"What the fuck do you mean you saw her?" I paced around the room, listening to Elijah as he tried to defend his case.

Earlier today he invited me over, I thought it was weird because there was nothing for us to talk about. He got drunk and let out the fact he saw her at some Korean Sandwich place down by where he works.

"She seemed...happy?" He said, waving his hands around as he spoke, he had sobered up now.

"Happy...happy ha- She has been missing for 6 months." I wiped my eyes, pulling out my phone to tell Dak-Ho.

"She's alive and that's what matters, right?" I audibly gasped by his responses.

"Did you even care?! Was it just some facade to get a good pay on fucking rent for a nice apartment?" Elijah looked at me dumbfounded, I had never raised my voice, even when arguing with Mimi.

"I love her, she's my best friend. Don't ever question if I care or not!" He cried out, tears were forming in his eyes.

"It's hard not to when you have no fucking clue what's going on with her, yet you love her... don't fucking do that shit." I argue. "Dak-Ho loves her. That shit is real, I love her, that's why we worry about her when she's gone!"

Elijah paced around the room, he stuttered slightly, getting tripped over his words.

At this point, I told Dak-Ho everything, not leaving a single detail out, he read every message and said thank you, it was short and cold and I could feel his energy through the screen.

I will deal with Elijah later.

"Lucas, listen," he grabbed my arm, I shrugged him off.

"I'm done listening to you, man. Once she's back don't contact me." He got silent, looking at me with teary eyes.

"I like you." He admits, sitting back in his chair. I turn over to him, suddenly realizing the tired look on his eyes. "I like you and that blinded me. I love Milan like she is my blood. Mimi is family to me so yeah-" he stopped, sniffling, "yeah, I'm an asshole and selfish because she listens! She truly listens, it made me forget that she isn't here." I looked at him with wide eyes, I was overwhelmed, my strong feelings for Milan and this new attraction to a man, I was in completely disarray.

"You should learn to listen, too." I muttered, taking a step closer to him, he got up slowly, keeping his eyes on mine. He wrapped his arms around me, putting his face into my shirt as he sobbed.

"The thought that I might lose her was so overwhelming that I wanted to act like she was never gone." I tightened my grip, hugging him as he cried into my arms, he looked up at me, tears flooding his eyes.

I swallowed, remember something Mimi said to me:

"Baby, I will love you no matter what you think is right or wrong, 'cause your you, it doesn't matter what other people think."

I kissed him, he hesitated, before taking me in, it was slow and sad and now more than ever I missed Milan.

She was my everything, and still, even now, after everything that's happened this past year, she found her way into my life and blessed me like she never left.