Uh oh...! // SAIKI K X READER

you dont know how long i could stare into your picture and wish that it was me

SAIKI POV

I don't know why, but something about my acceptance of my romantic feelings just settled on me. I feel wrong, as if I've changed into someone new. Changing is a good thing right? If so, then why is this making me feel so uneasy? Romance is unstable, what if she stops liking me one day? Then I'll be left as this stupid vulnerable version of myself and nobody to share it with.

I can hear you going 'Woah, Saiki! Where'd all this doubt come from?' and I'd like you to stop. Don't ask me questions, it's unnerving. However I'll answer out of the kindness of my heart, Y/N's friend from her old school came to visit today. That in and of itself wouldn't make me jealous, but the way he's so natural around her does. He's a little too touchy and too kind and too funny for my liking, I mean seriously?

I've been listening in from my room, but I think it's about time I pop in for a surprise visit.

I could knock, yes, but I could also just walk in. I have keys for a reason, don't I? Following that line of thinking, I unlock the door and make my way up to her room with a small bag of grapes in hand. When I open the door they're sat on her bed watching shows, immediately she jumps in surprise at my barging in and rushes to greet me after calming her nerves.

"Who's this?" I question, eyeing the boy up and down with my typical expression.

She beams and grabs my hand, dragging me further into the room, "This is my friend Shigoto Hiro! Hiro, this is my...." she trails off as she attempts to find a label for what we are "This is Saiki Kusuo!"

The boy quirks his eyebrow at her gap in the sentence, but brushes it off to shake my hand instead. I don't return the gesture.

"Come on Ku don't be a grump, he's really nice!"

"I don't doubt it, and don't call me that."

She rolls her eyes and gestures to her bed for me to join them in their movie watching. Shigoto sits where I usually do, which irks me slightly. Whatever, I'm not about to be jealous of her friends. She's allowed to have male friends, it's not like he knows it's my spot anyways.

Halfway through, Shigoto checks his phone and his lock screen is a photo of him and Y/N together, smiling and eating ice cream. Ugh, of course that's his photo.

I feel my chest constrict a bit as a horrible feeling pangs through me. Y/N and I could never take photos like that together, I'm not nearly expressive enough nor do I like having my picture taken. I could pretend for her maybe, but she'd know. She understands me too well sometimes.

I don't like feeling this way, it's stupid and irrational. Due to my telepathy, I know that Y/N harbors no romantic feelings for Shigoto. He seems to have some hints of them, but nothing enough for him to act on or even acknowledge them. Taking all that into account, my brain should have calmed down by now, yet it hasn't.

I feel horrible, as if my brain's inability to calm down around this guy is my fault somehow. It's especially dumb because I'm being such a hypocrite right now! Y/N is prone to even more irrational jealousy and I've made it clear that I'm fine with that! And I am, when it's her I'm able to accept it and work to find a solution that works, but whenever I'm jealous it just feels wrong. It's probably because I haven't really felt anything like this until meeting Y/N, I mean sure, I've been jealous but never like this. Never over a person.

After the movie ends, Y/N stands up and turns to face us.

"Are you guys hungry?" She asks, glancing at a clock that reads '14:32'.

Shigoto smiles, "I could eat, what about you Saiki?"

I don't particularly like him saying my name, but either way I respond "I'll cook something, how about that soup we had the other day, Y/N?"

She visibly lights up at the suggestion, exclaiming "YESYESYESYES!!"

Checking the time, Shigoto's expression dims slighyly, "I think I've got to go after food, sorry guys."

"Aww man, okay! Don't worry, Kusuo's food is awesome, you'll be leaving happy as can be." She comments, glancing at me before posing her hands on her hips.

"Okay then, we can play some games while he cooks?" He says, his inflection coming off more as a question towards me.

I reluctantly nod, granting him my approval to hang out separately whilst I make food, "It shouldn't take too long."

"Great! I'm gonna beat your ass at Mario Kart by the way, I've been practicing since last time!" Y/N challenges whilst dragging Shigoto down the stairs and towards the living room.

This is going to be a long evening.

—A/N—

"mimi stop trying to work tv girl references into your writing!" LALALA IM NOT LISTENNIINNNGGGGG