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Chapter 13

Hoseok tiptoed into the bedroom where the two 95-liners were sleeping soundlessly. The sight of the two immediately had a calming effect on the dancer and since his presence didn't seem to disturb the younger ones, he silently moved further into the room and sat down on one of the big lounge chairs at the end of the room.

His hands were still shaking badly, and he had already wiped them several times over his sweatpants to get rid of the sweat, but at least the constant chaos and blurriness in his head started to clear up. It was a weird feeling as he felt his body responding this heavily in the absence to the painkillers, but at the same time not being able to control any of the symptoms was bothering him greatly. He felt nervous, even though he tried to convince himself that he was overreacting, but he still felt on edge. Every single noise coming from downstairs or just a simple sigh from one of the members was enough of a reason for Hoseok's distressed body to react to it.

Thankfully the nausea had improved since he hadn't thrown up anymore, but he also hadn't been able to eat ever since. His stomach was clenching and turning upside down while his mind was going crazy with different kinds of nonsense thoughts. Sometimes he didn't even realize if he was awake or dreaming.

And then Hoseok was startled awake when he felt his head nodding towards his chest. Oh, maybe he was dreaming after all?

He took a quick glance across the room and noticed that the two younger members where still sleeping in the exact same position as when he had entered the room. And when he saw the alarm clock next to Jimin's bed, he noticed that 10 minutes had passed since he had entered the room. Hoseok blinked a couple of times and shifted his position in the chair to prevent himself from dozing off yet again. He knew it was in the middle of the night and that he should probably sleep right now, but he didn't want to. Not like this.

He was about 99% sure that if he was going to sleep like this, that it would result in a night terror. So no thank you, Hoseok decided to stay awake just a little longer so he could escape hopefully the inevitable.

Without even realizing, his eyes landed on Jimin's sleeping form and kept staring at the boy while he tried to figure out what was bothering their oldest maknae. The most plausible reason for Hoseok was that Jimin was simply upset, another possibility that the dancer believed was he had pushed the younger one when he had ran off into the bedroom when Namjoon started to vomit. But the others didn't think that was the reason, but they also didn't come up with other explanations. So, Hoseok started to believe that this could be the only reason why Jimin was suddenly so withdrawn, and his guilty feeling intensified 100x more due to his withdraw symptoms. The jumpiness, the sweaty hands, the queasy feeling over his body. Every single thought inside his head was getting overanalyzed and slowly the chaos returned.

It was only two minutes later when Hoseok couldn't stay seated in his chair anymore and needed to get closer to Jimin. He needed to fix his mistake, he needed to be there for his dongsaeng, he needed to make things right!

"Hobi hyung"

Hoseok stopped walking and jumped slightly when he stopped only to stare into Jimin's eyes. His open eyes to be exact.

"Jimin?"

The boy nodded and moved his blanket a little lower so he could sit up against the headboard. Hoseok watched as Jimin used both hands to reposition his casted ankle to sit more comfortably, and when he was done, he carefully moved closer to the bed.

"Uhhm Don't you want to sleep?' the dancer asked, but as soon as the first words left his mouth, he started to ramble rapidly "I,,, Uhhh I mean, you were sleeping, and I'm sorry if I woke you. Wait, you should sleep. I won't bother you. Go back to sleep Jiminie, I will go away, just-"