5150

I cant.

Mayas pov

As soon as I woke up I got ready and began to wait for Carina. She said she's be here at 9, which is just a few minutes from now. I'm so excited to leave this place and never come back.

"Maya, your wife is here." A nurse says, knocking at my door. I head into the hallway and I see her at the front desk. Her brown hair cascading down her shoulders, with highlights from the summer sun. God, she's so beautiful. I missed her so much.

She sets down her pen and hands the form to the secretary, finally looking up and locking eyes with me. A smile is painted across her face, which is so contagious. I walk over to her, wrapping my arms around her. She holds me tight, I can feel her beginning to cry.

"Ready, Bambina?" She asks. "Yes." I say, nodding my head and smiling. It's silent as we head out to her car. She opens the trunk, letting me put my bags in there. Once she shuts it, we're inches apart. She tucks my hair behind my ear. "Can I kiss you?" I ask, placing my hand on the side of her face.

She doesn't respond, but she leans in and kisses me first. God I missed this. She pulls away, smiling. "Let's go, shall we?" She says, heading to the drivers seat.

The first few minutes in the car are pretty silent. She breaks it by saying "I'm really proud of you, Maya." "I'm proud of myself" I reply.

We get back to the apartment, she helps me bring my stuff inside, then heads back to her car. "Carina where are you going?" I ask, "Maya, I can't stay here. I can't do it, not right now. Can we talk tomorrow?" She says, unlocking her car. "Yeah, that works... goodbye carina, thank you." I say.

"See you tomorrow Bambina, I love you." She says back. A weight feels like it was lifted off my shoulders with those last three words. I was worried she didn't want to fight for us.

The apartment is very clean, carina clean, which is not how I left it. Everything is neatly placed where it should be, every piece of furniture is dusted. I open the fridge, seeing a plate made by her for me. I heat it up and sit at the counter to eat it. The first bite is like heaven, the food at the psych ward sucked. Carinas food is so delicious.

Unlike the past few weeks, I feel my body getting tired, my eyes shutting. I feel like I can finally sleep. Maybe it's the actual mattress, maybe it's the lingering scent of carina, whatever it is, it's working.

Carinas pov

I arrive at amelia's and get some work done on my computer. It's not often that I get time to catch up, so I have to take it when I get it. She gets back to the house a few hours later from her shift.

"Why are you working? Do you ever relax?" She asks, laughing. "What's your idea of relaxing?" I ask her, raising my eyebrows. "Have a glass of wine, watch some tv or something." She says, taking her shoes off.

"I do need a drink." I reply, sighing. "Teddy and a few others were gonna go to joes tonight, I was gonna DD if you're interested." I hesitate for a second, before saying "I'm in." "Yes! I needed some drunk carina to entertain me tonight." Amelia responds, I roll my eyes.

"I'm not getting that drunk tonight. I'll have maybe a few drinks, and then call it quits." I respond. "That's what you said last time and then you..." she starts but I cut her off. "I don't want to hear about it."

We walk into the packed bar, and I spot teddy, Bailey, and Mer in the back. Amelia pulls me through the crowd to their table. Before I know it, Mer shoves a tequila shot in my hand. "Come on DeLuca, let's go." She says. I throw it back, before placing the glass on the table.

"How've you been?" Mer asks after her shot. "I'm okay, I've been better. How are you?" I reply, "same old, same old." She replies. We chat for a little, mostly just catching up. Our relationship is all because of Andrea. We were there for each other when he died, she did a lot for me.

I finally work my way up to the bar, trying to get helms attention so I can get a drink. The man next to me is looking me up and down, "Todd" he says, sticking his hand out. "Carina" I reply, shaking his.

"What are you doing here all by yourself?" He asks. "Drinking. And I'm not by myself." I reply, helm comes over and smiles at me. "Vodka cran?" She asks. "Yes please." I reply, I try to hand her my card but the man next to me pushes my hand away and gives her his card. "A pretty lady like you shouldn't be paying for her own drinks."

"My wife usually buys mine, but thanks." I say back. "Woah, wife. Okay, where is she?" He asks. "At home." I reply. Helm hands me my drink, and I begin to walk away. "Come on, you're gonna let me buy you a drink and then walk away?" He says, his hand touching my arm.

" I didn't ask you to pay for me, please leave me alone." I say, walking back to my friends. We chat for a little, each of us a few drinks deep. I'm definitely tipsy, but I have no urge to stop now.

After about two more drinks, Teddy gets picked up by Owen, and Bailey by Ben, leaving just me amelia and Meredith. With every drink I think more about Maya, which was the opposite of the goal. We start to head back for the night, amelia drops mer at her place.

"Would you mind if I had Kai over? They just landed in Seattle." Amelia asks. "I don't care, you don't have to ask me, it's not my house." I reply. "Yeah but we can get a little loud... if you know what I mean." She says. I laugh. "At least one of us is getting something. I miss sex." I reply.

She laughs and we pull into the driveway. I walk back to her guest room, putting my pjs on and getting ready for bed. I'm thankful I'm a heavy sleeper, because amelia was not joking when she said they're loud.