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three steps back

*smut, long chapter
Mayas pov

I swallow before asking "do you wanna come back to my place?". I look up at her, she can't conceal her smirk. "I'd love to"  she replies.

We head back to my... our house hand in hand. God this feels so good. It's like I'm falling in love all over again. When we get to the door I pick her up and carry her through the threshold of our shared house. She giggles, kissing my neck. "Does every girl you bring back get this treatment?" She asks.

"Only you." I say as I place her on the bed. Our lips meet as I straddle her, I can taste the wine on her breath.

Her hands run down my back as I kiss her, god I missed her lips. She pulls me closer, her tongue slipping in my mouth. I finally pull away, just looking at her. "I need you, Maya." She says as her long fingers slowly undo the buttons on my shirt.

She pulls the shirt off my body, before pulling my chest to her face. She gently kisses down my body before reaching my bra. I quickly unclasp it, throwing it somewhere in the room. Her lips travel to my now uncovered chest, kissing everywhere except where I want her.

After a minute of teasing she slowly drags her tongue over my nipple, making an animalistic moan come out of my mouth. "Fuck" I moan, my eyes can't look away from her mouth, her hands wandering all over my body.

She flips us over so she's on top, her mouth back on my boobs. I feel her hand moving down my body, cupping my center. "Fuck" I moan. I run my hands down her sides before moving them to her nipples. Shes so sensitive, so am I. It's been... a while.  

I grab her ass, pushing us closer together, she pulls away for a second, moaning loudly. "I need you." She says. Without a second to think, I pull her hips up to my face. She slowly lowers herself down, and I gently lick her slit once. "Maya please." She whines.

"Use me" I reply. I put ny hands on her hips and guide her as she fucks my face. God this is so hot. She's so wet, I can feel her throbbing. With every thrust I can hear her dirty moans. I'm so turned on.

I let my hands wander up her body, one squeezing her boobs the other around her neck. I apply light pressure on her neck, and start to gently toy with her nipples. "Oh my god Maya" she yells out. "Fuck don't stop. Fuck." She yells as she comes on my face.

Fuck that was so hot. She moves her body down mine, kissing me gently. Her hands slowly moving to my boobs. I pull away from the kiss to moan gently. "Carina?" I say. She stops her movements immediately, looking at me with a furrowed brow. "No don't stop. I just... I'm on new medication for my anxiety and.. I haven't been able to.. you know." I say nervously.

"Do you want me to stop?" She asks. "No I just don't know if I'll finish and I dont want you to think I dont like it or something.. I.." I say but she cuts me off. "Bambina, that's completely normal. Tell me if you want me to stop, okay?" She says. I nod my head, a smile creeping over my face.

She kisses my neck, before traveling to my ear. "What do you want?" She asks. "Your fingers. And your mouth." I reply. She smirks, before kissing me again.

Our lips separate, as she kisses down my body. Her mouth on my nipple makes me moan loudly. "Please" I say, pushing her head down. Normally she'd say no, tease me for as long as she wants, and then give me what I want. But she nods, kissing my stomach and down to my center.

After a few minutes I get worried that she's getting tired, or frustrated. This can't be fun for her, having to work so hard for my orgasm. "Bella, what do you need?" She asks. I pull her face up from my clit, and her hand to my slit.

She immediately starts sucking my clit, two of her fingers teasing me before pushing in. She starts slow, rubbing my g spot with every thrust. "More" I manage to say in between moans. She slides a third finger in me and keeps sucking my clit.

It's probably been ten minutes that's she's been slowly building me up. I feel terrible. I want to tell her to stop, it's not worth her effort. It feels good, so good. But I can't help but think she's not enjoying it.

I can finally feel myself getting closer and closer. She must know it, she starts going faster. "Fuck carina." I say as I gently pull on her hair. I finally come and it's the best thing I've felt In weeks.

As I catch my breath, she crawls back up my body and places a kiss on my lips. "That was so good." I say quietly. "Sí Bambina. It was." She replies, her head resting on my chest.

After a couple minutes she gets up to use the bathroom. She's taking more time in there than she usually does, which is worrying me. Maybe she didn't like it? Does she hate me?

I knock on the door gently. "Carina?" I say. She doesn't reply. "Carina?" I say again, this time louder. I hear her soft cries. "Can I come in?" I ask, but she doesn't answer. I feel the handle move down as she lets me in.

She's wearing one of my t shirts, holding a box in her hand. Pregnancy tests. "You're not.." I start but she cuts me off. "No. I never will be." She adds. I'm not sure what to say. I'm not sure how to comfort her. I put my hand on her arm but she flinches away. She continues to cry, her back sliding down my bathroom wall.

"Carina I want to help. But I don't know what's going on." I say softly, sitting next to her, not too close. "It's too late, Maya. I'll never be a mother. I got so wrapped up in everything, I lost my chance." She says through sobs.