Lotus - A Yearning Of The Soul.

13- Mutual Respect

DEVANSHI'S POV:

Lying on my bed, I was thinking about, what he spoke and the way he spoke. He actually accepted the truth, that he doubts me. He didn't lie, out of everything honesty was the most respectable virtue. He was being honest with me and it was fine I guess, But marriage was too much.

Even his point was right that I would marry anyone my father chose. But surprise to me was how did he know about my last marriage proposal? It was true if not for my mother I wouldn't have escaped the wedding she asked me to leave for America. She convinced my father to wait for a year and she helped me break the alliance. Remembering this, I knew she was hurt by my decisions. But the sole reason to hurt her was, She was a soft person and if I told her everything would be complicated.

My mind drifted to her words, asking me to trust her that he was the one. But I had long forgotten to believe in the one. There were no happy endings. On top of that he confessed about not trusting me completely, he was not a fool to act on just a misunderstanding. One time could be believed but if he still has some doubt that means he has some proof or evidence to mislead him to me.

But then, he confessed about his confusing feelings too. Which I'm scared to trust. Him being with that girl in his office he questioned me about Vihaan and was talking to me like this. He was confusing me.

Even I was not able to move myself. It's always like that, as if I'm possessed by him, he never let's me move, frozen at a place.

Why is everything thing so complicated? I don't want to get married ever, just want to focus on my career and help people, whatever help I could provide others. But then, what this alliance is about to bring? I'm scared, unsure and in dilemma. How will I be able to fulfill my responsibilities? What if I fail?

Taking a deep breath, closing my eyes I just murmured the sentence my mom used to say when I was scared. "Everything will be fine. Whatever God has planned is best. You just need to do your best. Leave the rest to him."

This helped me calm down and I slept until my alarm in the morning woke me up.

The Wedding today happened peacefully, with everyone enjoying the rituals and all, and in the evening even the reception happened peacefully and a few guests left at night, whereas a few close friends and family stayed till tomorrow morning. I will leave tomorrow as Anisha asked me to stay for her rituals and basically now would be the Vidai.

I got up early in the morning to pack my things for departure and get ready for her vidai, Nitish and her were to leave for Delhi.

Now was the time, She was going away leaving her family, leaving everything behind for just one person. She hugged her parents and cried and came towards me I was barely able to control my tears and now when she hugged me I couldn't. It wasn't because of her going away or so but each and every girl knows this, even if you stay just in the house opposite to your parents, some things change. Your priorities change. You leave a part of your life to start the new. We still were fortunate enough to be born in this century, where we contact anyone as per to our wish and not in ancient times where you need to wait for months or years for a letter.

As she left, sitting in her car, her parents sobbed hugging each other, and a thought crossed my mind. What about mine? Will my father cry? He would if he was the same person he used to be in my childhood, but after the things which happened between us in these years, I don't think so. He doesn't even want to see my face. He had declared this to me long back, not to show my face to him after marriage. I chuckled to the fact sadly.

Anisha was with her love, who would help her, love her,support her but for me, I didn't know Vedansh, how he will treat me? One thing I wanted to make sure before getting married was a stable career, where I'm satisfied and have completed my education.