The Poems Of A Young Suicidal Girl

Poem #31

Have you ever felt like the most pathetic human being on earth?
Like everything you do is out of desperation?
That every decision you make is apart of some big scheme to benefit yourself in some twisted way?
Have you ever felt like the most disgusting piece of shit the world has to offer?
As if you couldn't do anything worse than you already have?
Maybe that your thoughts are somehow plagued with something that's not so normal?
Have you ever felt so pathetic that nothing could possibly help you, like you're drowning in your own despair and everyone is just watching you with a look of humor upon their faces and you can't even blame them?
Can't blame them because you know you deserve every last few gasps for breath that you cannot seem to regain
Have you ever felt so pathetic?
- r.b.