Show Yourself To Me

CHAPTER 23: "Love is one big illusion"

Chapter 23

I got home tired and restless, today is suppose to be a celebration but it ended as a disaster, my body is tired with the late up sleep because of my thesis but nothing will be more painful than a heartache, it exhaust you and wire you out physically, verbally and specially mentally

Who would have thought that being with him would be more excruciation and torture, the fact that you have the chance to change a thing, a little bit spin on the battle and miracle might happen, but I'm a coward, I always think back and look back the reason why I can't move up, in every action I make I always think of the bad, of the past, and it always chain me, locked me and stop me from being free

And here I thought I am, I thought I'm already spreading my wings and preparing for a departure but I was wrong, all this time I'm still at the edge, not able to move not able to step forward, I'm still a coward, scared of what my family will say, what my parents will react, I guess I'm just that, a kitten who act like a lion, A dumb little kid who act smart and mighty, The blackship of my family, would it be more better if I was an ugly ducklings, and just lost in the midst of ducklings but the truth I am the most enchanted and dashling swan they will ever seen, I hope my story is just like that pero mukhang mas malala pa ata sa bla-bla black sheep ang kwento ko

Dahan-dahan akong naglakad sa aming bahay at nang makatapak sa aming marble tiles si ate camilla agad ang bumungad sa akin na naka upo sa sofa at matalim akong tiningnan

Linagpasan ko lang ito at hindi na pinansin ngunit napa tigil ako nang marinig ang pagtayo nito

"Why are you with Ezekiel earlier?" Tanong nito sa mataray na tono

I look at her the same way she look at me and ask in a more wrath and impudent tone "How about you?" Balik ko sa kaniyang tanong

She smirk and anger is visible on her eyes "Nauna akong nagtanong kaya wag kang bastos"

I look at her with disbelief, ako pa talaga ang bastos "I'm not obligue to answer your question am I? pero sige for your piece of mind, hindi ba kayo ang magkasama kanina and also what is your relationship with Aqui anyway"

Marahas na nagbuga ito ng hangin "Aqui? I wonder what relationship you have with him to call him like that"

I fake a smile "He's going to be our school important and significant guest,and I was incharge to escort him and guide him as the school representative for our upcoming foundation and anniverary day, our relationship is nothing but a school represantative and school guest, did that answer your question" A lame lie, lies which is so unbelievable but believable because I have shown them the consent note of Aqui from the school

"Such relationship that give you the right to call him like that instead of gesture formalities such as Mr. Ezekiel or Mr. Lecienco"

"Yes" nakakapagod ng makipag-away at naubusan na ako ng maisasagot kaya tumango na lang ako

"Are you joking?" She unbelievably ask

I almost roll my eyes but I stop midway "We agreed to cut the formalities so I can be more comfortable with him since I'll be checking with him until our foundation day" saad ko

"What is he going to do in your foundation day anyway?" Naiiritang tanong nito kaya nairita na rin ako

"Ask him!" My voice raised a little "You never answer my question, what is your relationship with him anyway?" Tanong ko

Natahimik ito bago huminga ng malalim "He's my ex Cath" sabi nito sa akin "So stay away from him" pagbabanta niya sa malumanay na tono

Napabuntong hininga ako "He's going to visit all of our booth so I'm handing him every detail of each everyone booth in our school so he can prepare and study it, one with most sale and profit booth will be awarded by 1 week free vacation and certificate that's the reason why I was associate with him ate so you don't have to worry" I said in defeat and hell those lie is unbelievably believable, he has the power and money to do so kaya kapanipaniwala naman "And why are you so worried anyway you're just an ex" she look at me pissed and I was shocked with what I just said