𝑴𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆𝒆𝒕 II 𝔹𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕜𝕒𝕦𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫

𝑹𝒂𝒅𝒊𝒐 𝒔𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆

A few days had passed since what happened at the club. I avoided Bill and Tom but Tom kept pushing. I felt so unbelievably bad for screaming at Bill like that but on the other hand I was still angry at what he had done. Within those few days I woke up early and got to set early so I wouldn't have to see Bill. But on set, Joey didn't make it much easier. I had lost all feelings I ever had for him and realized he was just there for my body and not me. Right now I was at the pool on a Tuesday evening, Bill and the band where invited to go visit the Chinese theater today, Tom told me, so they where coming back late which let me relax a bit. I was sipping a mock-tail, laying on a sun chair when a familiar voice spoke to me.
"Luna, I'm sorry. I just love you so much I couldn't bare the thought of you with someone else.."
It was Bill.
"I..I know and I love you too..really. But you kissed someone else. That's going too far Bill. You didn't believe me!"
His head sinks, silent tears flowing.
"I-I'm sorry! I didn't know what I was doing! I wasn't thinking straight!"
I lift up his head and wipe away his tears.
"Bill...I still love you, I really do but...I can't love someone who doubts me"
His heart breaks into a million pieces, I can see it since the glimmer in his eyes disappears.
"I-"
He sobs, his voice breaking as he falls to his knees.
"You can't- I love you...please Luna"
He begged making myself tear up as well. I was about to say something when I feel a tap on my shoulder.
"You ok miss?"
I open my eyes. It was just a dream. I was crying...in my sleep.
"I-uh yes!"
I sniffle and the waitress leaves. I have to talk to Bill. He's leaving in a few days, I don't have much time left.

𝑩𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒔 𝑷𝑶𝑽
We had the Chinese theater all to ourselves, we were getting a tour and it was being recorded for Tokio Hotel TV.
"Hey Bill you ok?"
Tom nudges me off camera.
"Uhm...no"
I mumble, I want to fix things with Luna but I just can't.
"Cmon man. You gotta talk to her! Look at yourself!"
I nod my head and suck it up. I have to look good for the camera.

After the visit ends we drive back to the hotel and Tom gives me advice.
"Listen, we only have about 3-4 days left here so you better act fast. You ain't doing this over text"
He says and I silently nod. We get to the hotel and I stand in front of Luna's hotel room, hesitating. This is so hard. WHy did I get myself into this? Right. Because I was so blinded by jealousy, I couldn't think straight.
"Bill..?"
I hear a voice from behind me. I turn around and come face to face with Luna. Her eyes were puffy and red again.
"Luna..Can we..talk?"
She slowly nods and opens the door to her room.

She sits on the bed and me on the couch.
"I..I'm sorry. I don't know what got into me I-"
I hear her sniffle, she's crying.
"Luna..?
She looks at me and gets up off of the bed and falls into my arms.
"I-I don't wanna lose you"
I feel tears fall off my cheeks as we hug, silently crying. We both loved each other still, but I knows there was no way of making this up to her.

I fell into his arms. I didn't want this to end like my dream. I know he did a really shitty thing but when you're in love you forget all the negative and only see the person you love. And I just love him and only him.
"I..I was blinded by jealousy..I've never felt like this for anyone. I just love you so..much"
He says in a braking voice which just breaks my heart. I hug him tighter and cry into his chest. I really don't want to lose him.
"I..forgive you.."
I say reluctantly and I feel his body get lighter, like I lifted a weight off his shoulders.
"R-really?"
I nod into his chest.
"Yes Bill. I really love you.."
He lifts me up and smiles at me brightly.
"I can't believe this!"
He says, his voice filled with pure happiness. I chuckle a bit and he kisses me while letting me down. This kiss wasn't like the other. It has a hint of sorrow but still happiness overpowering.
"I love you"
Bill says as we have our foreheads against each other.
"I.."
I pause, making his face worried.
"I do too..but I don't think I'm ready to be your girlfriend yet.."
His face visibly drops again.
"I..I know"
We part and just hug. I will need time, time that we both don't have. That just makes me feel even worse about myself. I just can't get that image of him and that girl out of my head. It hurts to know his lips touched others but..I'll have to accept it. I mean we weren't together at the time nor are we now...So technically he could do whatever he wanted but..I loved him and still do. Our love bond may be strong..but not strong enough to forget such a thing..So I'll need time.
"It's ok"
He whispers in my ear, my sorrow passing over to him.
"Take your time"
He says in a gentle yet sorrowful voice. I nod into his chest and pull away to look at him.
"But..we don't have time.."
"Yes we do..our love has no time limit"
I frown at him as we sit down on the edge of the bed.
"But your tour does..I don't want to be apart from you"
He hugs me again, kissing the top of my head.
"I don't either.."
He gently rubs my back as we sit and hug in a comforting silence.

✰𝐴／𝑁：I don't recommend reading this while listening to sad songs...