Kamora 23
July 9, 2020
Chicago, Il
I went to the doctor just to get turned around. She since I had unprotected sex they want me to wait until my next period and not have unprotected sex. I thought I was getting birth control.
I decided to go get stuff for dinner and S'mores. I decided to make steak, shrimp, loaded baked potatoes, broccoli and cheese, and garlic breadsticks for dinner. It's our last day here we got some family activities planned and a movie night. Before or after movies we're gonna make some S'mores.
...
When I got out the car the front door was opened. Frank was handing Cyrus to Dream then he came and grabbed the bags. He looked at my arms as he grabbed them. "Changed your mind?", he asked as we walked to the stairs.
"Nah I gotta wait cause I been fucking raw.", I said glancing at him. I saw him grinning. "Hey Dream, hey Cyrus.", I said hugging and kissing them. Frank but the stuff in the kitchen and me and the kids walked to the front room.
Dream showed me a picture asking if I could do her hair like that. It's a few feedin braids going into two buns with curly hair. It has little bit noticeable pink throughout. "When we get back to the house can you do this for me? Please.", she pleaded clapping her hands together.
"Of course babes." She smiled and picked Cyrus up off the couch.
"We're gonna go play on his set outside."
"Okay stay within camera view, I'm gonna be out there soon though.", I said.
"Okay.", she said before walking away. Frank walked in and sat next to me as I pulled up the backyard camera.
"You want me to grill them steaks?"
"You can if you want." He nodded and we sat in silence. "You'll do me a favor?"
"Of course.", he said.
"I need to go get my stuff from the old house, can you come with me?", I asked.
"Yeah. I got you." I nodded. "Here." He pulled a card out his wallet and handed it to me. "This one for you. It got your name on it." I took it and looked at it.
"Why?"
"Just for you to have.", he shrugged.
"That's something you give like a wife.", I said trying to give it back.
"Nah, keep it for real. I want you to just stack yo' money, so use this. It ain't hurting me."
"So niggas made of money?" I chuckled. "You sellin' drugs Frank?"
"Kinda, not really.", he said. I looked at him confused. "My uncle gets a nice amount of drugs to me like two times a year, and I transport it to somebody else. I get broken off like 3.5 mil each time and he continue to pay for everything in this bitch so. Did I just fuck up my chance with us?" I shook my head.
"And you still working? You getting at least 7 mil a year.", I said.
"Yeah, ion really touch it like that. I mean I do, but it ain't noticeable don't wanna bring attention to myself." I nodded.
"Well I'll hold onto this. But it ain't no us Frank. I just caught onto what you said. I'm going outside with the kids." He smacked my ass as I walked past and I playfully pushed his head.
...
I noticed Dream seemed to be developing so after her shower I decided to have that talk with her, a talk I never had with my mother but definitely would've appreciated before my friend came.
After we talked I wrapped her hair and put on ocean sounds for her. I left the door cracked as I left. It's the only way she gets a good night sleep.
I went look for Frank and Cyrus and I found them in my room. Frank was rocking him and reading him a book. He look ready for bed and sleep already.
When Frank finished the book he laid Cyrus in his pack and play and we both left the room. "You gave him a bath?", I asked.
"Yup, everything taken care of. You can relax, imma go pack my bag. Thank you for talking to Dream. I didn't know when I was gone have the conversation, or when I was supposed to.", he exhaled.
"Don't thank me." He softly smiled before walking away. I grabbed the things I needed before going to take a shower.
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After my shower and skincare and so on, I put on some shorts and a crop top. I went to Frank's room to see if he wanted to smoke before going to sleep. Been thinking a lot these last few hours, I really just need a shoulder.
I knocked on the door and it was opened seconds later. He was already rolling up. "You wanna smoke?", he asked. I nodded and walked in. He closed the door behind me.
We sat on his bed in silence as he rolled up. "What's wrong?", he asked. I looked at him and he was still rolling. "Don't say nothing, I know better than that.", he said.
"My mind just busy.", I said softly.
"What's on yo' mind?"
"Jade, Von, Jaylen. Our baby."
"You wanna talk about it?", he asked.
"I hate how me and Jade's last conversation went. I wish I just ignored them having sex, maybe none of this would've even happened.", I said.
"It's fucked up but I know it was god's plan. He wanted to give you Cyrus, he wanted you there for Dream that night. Sometimes something beautiful comes from something painful. I think you needed Cyrus, before all that even happened you just didn't know. You know, maybe to help with the loss." I have been having an empty feeling inside of me since I lost the baby, and it seems like Cyrus has filled that void. It sounds so fucked up, nobody will ever be able to take that spot though.
"You probably right. I ain't think about it like that."
"It's gone be all good, I promise. I'll make sure of it." He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me to him. He kissed my head and rubbed my shoulder. "Spark this."
We smoked and talked, like old times.
After two blunts I was ready to knock out. "Imma hit the sheets.", I said standing up stretching. I started walking to the door.
"Sleep with me tonight.", he said stopping me. I got in his bed and got under the covers. He went to the bathroom before coming to bed. He cracked the door and hit the lights before holding me, making me drift off instantly.
