I woke up to taps on my window. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Frank standing in the dark. I looked at the time as I unlocked my door. It's almost 5 in the morning.
Frank got in the passenger seat and we sat in silence. "I'm sorry.", Frank spoke up.
"I should be the one apologizing.", I said shaking my head. "I been neglectin' you like you ain't hurtin' too.", I said looking at him. He ran his hands down his face. I looked back straight and I heard his breathing get heavy. He broke down as I looked over. My heart literally broke.
He told me about the miscarriage and how he felt, his mom dying soon and him wanting to hate her but can't, him trying to spend time with me and I just make him feel like I don't wanna be with him.
We talked about everything, including my feelings, and we cried. We came to an understanding and I think we finally in a good space.
We say in silence holding hands. He looked at the cameras as he rubbed my hand. "I gotta tell you somethin'.", we said at the same time. We both looked at each other. "Did you cheat?", I asked. "No, you?", he replied. I shook my head.
"You go first.", he said. I tried pulling my hand away but he wouldn't let me. "It can't be that bad if you ain't cheat. Just tell me."
"What if you get mad and decide to beat my ass? I-"
"I'd never put my hands on you Kamora. You can tell me you just sucked a nigga dick in the bar bathroom, I would be heated but I wouldn't hit you. I just wanna hold yo' hand, this the closest we felt in a minute. Ion want it to end. You been talkin' to somebody else?" I shook my head. "Was you just suckin' dick?" I made a face before shaking my head. Like come on now. "So what up?" I just looked at him. "You kissed somebody?" I just looked at him. He tilted his head and raised his eyebrows a bit, but he didn't let my hand go or tighten his grip. He itched the back of his head and turned straight. "So what happen?", he asked looking at me. I looked down before telling him the story. I can't look him in his eyes.
"After I first left Milwaukee I met a dude named Lucas. We messed around after my miscarriage for a bit, I had sex with him and we partied. Anyways, I seen him at the bar. He said hey then went and sat down. Faith was fucked up and her dude ended up coming. She left and I told her I'd be leaving in 5 minutes, she had me FaceTime her until I left so she knew I was good. But after she left he came and sat next to me. Ordered us some shots and asked how life was blah blah blah. We took the shots and he told me how good I looked. He kissed my cheek and I looked away, he said I still smelt good then kissed my neck. I pushed him away right away though. You can ask Faith, nothing else happened.", I said still looking down.
"My coworker kissed me at the work party yesterday, Ian know how to tell you. I pushed her away and I ain't kiss her back. I can put it in anything.", he said. I looked up at him and he was looking at me. "I shouldn't have even let that bitch get that close to me but everybody was drinkin' a lil havin' a good time, that's the last thing I thought would've happened. I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry too."
"You not mad?", he asked. Shit I'm surprised he ain't pissed.
"Are you mad at me?", I asked. "Nah.", he shook his head. "Then nah.", I replied.
"You still wanna be with me?", he asked. "Do you still wanna be with me is the question.", I said looking over at him.
"Girl I been wantin' you before you wanted me. And ion think nun can change that." A small smile appeared on my face. We slowly leaned in and kissed each other.
His hands started roaming and mine did too. Once I felt his hard dick, I knew it was on.
