Loving Every Second With U

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*Carter*

What did I ever do in my life. To have all of this happen to me today.

My worst nightmare coming to life.

My crush finding out about my obsession with him. Him them basically rejecting...even firing me from my job.

And it's all thanks to me.

I blame every single thing that has happened today on myself. Since I'm clearly the one and only person to blame here.

But still...what did I ever do to deserve all of this that happened to me?

Was I really that bad of a person. I tried my best! Even though I'm not that perfect of a person. I still try...the only bad things that I've done were some stupid stuff I did.

But that shouldn't be enough to deserve a punishment like this!

Or...maybe I just have the worse luck that anyone that ever existed on this planet has had. I don't think it's the worst luck that I've had.

But for this to happen! Is definitely the cause of that.

But that really doesn't change anything! It's over...everything.

It was over the moment that he confronted me.

And when I admitted it...the look of relief that came on his face after I told him I knew what was coming just told me everything.

You know...I'm so fucking pathetic. I crush on a guy that I can't have who is also my boss. Then them finding out...and being disgusted by it.

Even if he was gay. He would still feel the same way.

Look at me...I'm no good for him. I'm not good looking or worth anything.

I'm just...nothing.

Two Hours Later

I'm just disappointed at myself right now. Thinking that I have the chance with a guy that I can't have. Who doesn't do any advances in a the way that makes the connection between two people in love stronger.

And how I was so delusional to the point where it got my heart so broken when I always fantasize about me and my crush actually getting together.

And how I felt like we had the same connection.

Well, now look at what I've done to myself. I've ruined everything!

Like I always do. And there will be no way to go back to fix those things that I've ruined.

My thoughts were then interrupted when some loud knocking came from my front door. Before I then faintly hear my front door opening.

Along with the noise of my alarm letting out a small chime. Confirming that my door did open. And that I wasn't hallucinating.

I felt stupid just sitting there in silence. But I was just shocked. And not to mention scared.

But also, if I were ever in a horror movie then I would've been the first one to die.