Sand lives his life to the fullest. He dedicates himself to music and sings at his best friend's bar because it's the only place where he can be himself...
In the daylight he's a man but during the nightlight he changes into a charming lady and one...
It's a Friday night and here I am again. Having problems with putting on stockings and a bra which is completely useless but it makes me look pretty and get all of the attention from perverts.
Lastly, I put on my wig. I actually have three of them but this one with short dark brown hair is my favorite. P'Yo is always helping me with make-up in the backstage because I did not learn how to do that in whole two years.
"Sand, are you sure you don't want to undergo a surgery? Just look at me! It made me into a real woman!"
"You don't get me, P'Yo. I don't want to change anything about myself. I don't mind my gender but I like to dress like this. As a man, I could never get as much attention as I do now." She shrugged and continued putting on fake eyelashes on me.
"I do agree as a woman I do get benefits I didn't get before but... it's not all pinkish every day... I've received a lot of hate like "why are you playing at something you are not?", "don't embarrass real women like this" and so on. I also noticed how the customers are touching you... if you do it just for attention, maybe you should stop." I frowned.
"This is my personality and I don't plan to change it anytime soon. I've never been as successful as a man and I don't plan to return to that point."
"And how do you want to meet someone with this lie? You are not a woman in your heart but lie to others."
"There's no way I'd meet someone among those perverts. I live for my dream which is to have tours and become a famous sexy singer." She rolled her eyes and finished her work on my face.
"I've never lied to others and myself. I was also afraid my boyfriend wouldn't accept that I was born as a man but in the end he didn't mind because I stayed sincere with myself and others."
"I am sincere with myself and I don't play at something I am not. This is also a part of my personality, not a phase. I just don't plan to change anything about myself." She gave up on arguing with me and went to meet others on the stage. I still struggle with high heels but I got used to them quite well. The men whistled and welcomed me with applause.
"That's our Sandy!!" They yelled and I immediately knew who I am once again. I sang few songs from unknown thai singers who inspired me and deserve more recognition and few songs of my own. After I finished, I almost lost my voice and my throat was sore.
"Can I invite you to a drink, pretty lady?" I was stunned by his handsome deep voice and also by his unfamiliar face.
"I've never seen you here before..." He smirked.
"It's my first time in this place. My friend's recommendation. I was feeling quite lonely and thought if you could keep my a company."
"That won't be for free." I turned around and he touched my bare shoulder but I slapped his hand.
"I'm not someone you can touch without consent." He smiled and drank from his cup.
"Fine, how much will that consent cost me?"
"Three drinks and 3 000 baht." He immediately grabbed his wallet and put the money into my cleavage. This is the real reason why I wear the bra.
I noticed he was already pretty drunk so he didn't even notice I have deeper voice or that I have muscles on my shoulders.
"What brings you here?" I asked why sitting on the bar chair.
"Loneliness, broken heart... you can guess those shits yourself." Someone like him and loneliness? That doesn't fit together.
"And what's your name anyway?"
"I'm glad you are asking, Sandy ♥. It's Ray." He said flirtatiously and leaned closer to my face. I wanted to push him away but remembered our deal... either I give him back the money or let him kiss me. I decided for the second option and rubbed my lips against his. He grabbed the nape of my neck and stuck his tongue into my mouth. The adrenaline was flowing in my veins. My whole body was shivering from excited and I had goosebumps. Luckily I shaved my whole body before my performance.
"My place or your place?" He asked when I pulled out for air. And it's here, I have to reject him. I can't let him find out I'm not the one he takes me for.
"I'm sorry but I have something urgent now-." I wanted leave sooner till it was too late but he grabbed my forearm and his grip was too strong.
"Did I not pay you enough?" My picture of him suddenly broke into pieces.
"Who do you take me for? A prostitute?!" I shouted and threw his stupid money into his face. This isn't the first time it happened to me but learning he's the same as everyone here actually made my blood boil. When he was too shocked by my reaction, I quickly ran away to change into my other self. Such an audacity he has to say this to my face. I can't believe I thought about sleeping with him.
When I was Sand again and wanted to go home with my motorbike, he stood in front of the building.
"Hey you, didn't you see Sandy over there?! Singer in this bar!" He must be seriously drunk when he didn't recognize me. Or seriously dumb.
"Uh, no. I spent the whole time on the toilets so I missed the show."
"I see..." He pressed his fists.
"What... did you want from her?"
"Oh I just wanted to thank her for her hospitality. She was a great company for my lonely night." I could hear his sarcasm so loudly.
"Too bad, I haven't seen her on my way here."
"But wait... your voice sounds quite familiar..." Is he sobering up?
"You must have mistaken me with someone-."
"Sandy?" He looked at me more closely and I pushed him away.
"Fine, you've uncovered my secret... she's my twin sister and I noticed how badly you treated her so I wanted to make sure nothing happened to her."
"I see... that's pretty bad from you... and she was with me willingly." Willingly my ass.
"Well... my sister has to be at home already so I advise you to go to your own as well-." He put his hands on the wall not letting me get away.
"Take me to her." I swallowed and then strongly pushed him which made him fall on the ground and I could finally get out of his sight. What is with his obsession?! Wasn't he heartbroken?! Shouldn't he worry about someone else?! I was too overwhelmed with these thoughts I didn't stop when the red light was flashing. Luckily... there weren't policemen but I got a fine in a letter later.
Author's note:I hope you liked the first chapter and please don't take my way of talking about transgenderism and crossdressing too seriously. I'm still learning about it so I may not know how people who are going through this are truly feeling but I want to show my support through this story.
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