Unsaid Love

five

"Ohh Jisoo unnie, what are you doing here alone?" chaeyoung cheerfully asked me.

After taking my champagne I settle on couch inside the bridal makeup room, I was so tired that I have no energy left to even stand.

She was smiling like a fool and I know why? blame it on alcohol well in our group me and chaeng is the only one who couldn't handle alcohol.

She's even better than me because she mostly remember her drunk state deeds but me don't even ask I am really terrible in remembering that's why Suho strictly warned me to not drink alcohol.

"Chaeng, when we will go for our girls night?" I asked her rather than answering her questions, how could I explain why I'm here alone while drinking, what should I say that I just check out someone other than my boyfriend and that's man is even not interested in me.

I think past few stressful days is making me losing my sanity as it could be the only reason why I'm giving him attention.

"Just few minutes unnie, Irene unnie have to bid farewell to his brother you know she has only one brother in the name of family, taehyung oppa."

Then she shook her head instantly "no, no unnie scratch what I just said, look like alcohol taking my mind, I mean unnie have to bid farewell to her foster uncle."

I chuckled at her cuteness she's adorable bundle of joy, life was happy when we were together and I miss those days, after the arrival of Suho in my life I did distance myself from them cuz he doesn't like bold and flirty women, well too bad for him but my friends fall into that category.

They would flirt with anyone except for their own crush. And boldness that was the basic element exist in our group. I remember how one time a male teacher stopped a girl to scold and humiliated her for distracting other boys as she wears a low cut t-shirt which she didn't do on purpose and guess what we did, we went college without a bra in protest, what a thrilling life I had.

I regretted whenever they pretend to be not hurt because of my ignorance they still welcomed me as they used to do.

Is it worth the love which took the other lovable relationship from you? I often asked this question to myself.

"Unnie are you there? why are you so unfocused today I noticed few times during wedding you often zoned out?what happened? Is everything okay between you and Suho oppa?"

I look at her as she bombarded me with so many question, it does feel good when someone shows concerned for you? Isn't it?

I gently grab her wrist and make her sit beside me on couch, she look confused then slowly removing her hand I rested my head on her lap.

She flinched and I felt it then slowly she caress my hair it feels good my chaengie is still the young girl who doesn't know how to comfort but try her best to do.

"Chaeng, how does it feel to be loved?"

"Ah...unnie? are you already drunk? did you forgot that you're dating huh? and you're asking this question to a born single person? wait...are you making fun of me?" she dramatically spoke clutching her chest.

Aish why she talk so much? Ohh I forgot she is foodie that's why she has enough energy to talk continuously.

"I said how does it felt to be loved not to be in love chaeng?" I clarified my question which keep bugging me since one month.

She makes few thinking faces before saying "I think it will probably be the best feeling unnie knowing someone love you conditionally, we might fall in love with someone who doesn't love us or maybe love but not like we do."

I was listening to her, the way she's wisely choosing the words after pausing I know she's trying to show me that she's mature now.

"but now you ask me this question unnie then I thought, isn't crazy to be loved by someone, that person might don't know us but willing to know everything, in his eyes we are the most beautiful despite how we look, they choose us for who we are, but when we are in love we tried to change ourselves according the one we love."

I smile and nodded to the legit point she said, my chaengie is growing up beautifully.

I hope we are not only into the idea of being in love instead of loving each other Suho.

      

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