Unsaid Love

twenty-three

I hate myself, I hate how I am the reason behind her those tears, I watched how she flinched on my sudden outburst, no she doesn't deserves it.

What make me loose my control is the fact that even though I am a renowned businessman she still doesn't even give a fuck about me I am still nothing in her eyes and irony is, this also make me want her soo much.

The nature she possessed is opposite of me, she is selfless unlike me I have my fair share of selfishness, she is full of life and I only have her to be alive.

The thing which I realise is she can be selfish in love or you may call she fully dedicated herself in relationship, a true real passionate lover anyone would want but sadly I wasn't the person she love, I can only watch all of hers for other man.

Kim Jisoo the woman who had no idea how she saved me from myself, I was nothing but a lifeless person untill she came into my life, she filled my days with her amusing bubbliness, her laugh is only I can hear in those karaoke room full with our friends.

But I was always invisible for her. And what hurt most knowing I am the one who is responsible for it because I pushed her we were not like this, never hostile to each other but I did what I know best to do, whoever I have ever love they had only left me on my own, I was scared, scare for that curse as my feelings for her grew bigger day by day.

I thought alot and then decided to end it by making her hate me. I have done worst thing to her in this process, which turn out to be a self destructive move, I suffered, thoughts of her left me numb. I can barely breath without her and it keeps getting worse.

I started to paint her my whole room was full of her painting and I find a solace in it as she is the only who can convert my white canvas like life into colourful giving it a beautiful meaning. I paint whatever I usually pictured for the time of us being together.

It silly isn't it.

Seeing her being happy with that man only torn me, sometimes I badly wanted to rip her apart from him then my conscience wouldn't allow me and by slowly suppressing myself leads me towards the darkness. I got obsessed with her like a drug. And it worsen to the point where I needed to be cure so flee to Italy.

My car comes to halt when I reached at the company, earlier my secretary calls to inform me about the urgency of my presence.

"Good morning S..sir." Receptionist slightly stuttered as she shockingly look at me when I entered inside.

I just plainly nodded then headed towards my cabin, her blushing didn't go unnoticed by me and only a blind couldn't see her crush on me.

I really wanted to fired her but she is in those few people who did their work perfectly and professionally, she also never approached me directly which is why she is still in this company.