Unsaid Love

sixteen

A smile found its way on my lips seeing the most beautiful creation slowly coming alive on the canvas, as my hand did the stroke of brushes to revive the painting of a specific one.

She was looking breathtaking in those avory white coloured gown and the inviting red lips, that was like a cherry on top of cake which I feel like craving for years to devour.

Red suits her the most.

God I fucking hate her so much!!

I still clearly remember the day when noona introduced her to us and "Hii I am Jisoo." the way she softly says her name, it melts my ear, with the shy look and mischief in her eyes, I fell for her charms, for the first time in awhile I felt my heart thump.

The way her eyes sparkle seeing everything makes me wanted to own all. Her demeanor screams perfection, and she was a living piece of fine art.

Slowly, slowly I found myself attached to the idea of her with me, she was different from other girls, her likings was different when others planned to spend their friday on shopping she would go to an art gallery, when they'll go to club on saturday night I would find her in the side corner of library alone with her books, I tried to bully her so that she would notice me.

Silly stupid heart with stupid brain and stupid ideas.

Her group was famous along with my sister too, she was charismatic, bold independent woman who sometimes likes to do silly pranks, the living diary of her friends.

But she was mysterious, intriguing and like a missing last piece of a puzzle.

It's been long 3 years and I'm still stuck at the same place where she declares her love for some senior guy. It would be lie if I say my heart and hope didn't broke.

And I blame her for it, I hate her for messing with my system.

I left the country when day by day attachment turn into attraction and then infatuation and it badly affected my routine I couldn't stop thinking about her, fuck I would stalk her on social media, and slowly shits are getting out of my control, no one knows about my unsaid feeling for a woman who think I hate her except for noona, hoseok hyung who actually stopped me to do anything wrong with that guy out of jealousy and my therapist, yes that far I fucked up.

I finally saw her in my sister's wedding and God take my breath she was looking gorgeous in those avory white gown and suddenly my damn eyes refuses to see anything else but her.

One thing that I hate to admit is I can't look into her eyes directly, she is too much for my poor heart, still my attention is always on her.

When I saw her boyfriend standing next to her my gaze immediately darkened, burning flames of fire ignite the will to separate them, she might have feel my stare as she turn to me.