Safe haven |Hazel Callahan x Reader |

Jealousy

Sylvie nudges me and I turn to her.
"You wanna hear something funny?"
Taking a glance at the bleeding men around me, I nod enthusiastically. She laughs and leans closer and whispers....
"PJ and Hazel kissed on the mouth"
It's hard to explain my feelings at this exact moment. It feels as though a balloon has been suspending my heart with a string. As I'm holding Hazels hand, it inflates. As I watch her play guitar, it inflates; and when she hugs me it almost bursts with air.
When Sylvie 'tells me something funny'
the balloon comes undone and drops my heart. My heart ricochets from my chest to my back and somewhere along the way, small fragments find their way to my brain and the deepest pits of my stomach.  I can feel the disorder inside myself and my hand retreats.
"Hey, you okay?"
Hazel whispers in my ear.
The space where my heart used to be begins to burn in its emptiness. Rage bubbles up and up and up...
I turn to her and our eyes meet.
"Why wouldn't I be?"
Her eyes widen slightly as if realising something and then they narrow in confusion.
"I, mean, n-no reason"
I shake my head no in agreement.
"Good"
"Good"
As the rest of the group break off into conversations I turn and walk off the field. Hazel reaches for my hand but I'm already gone. I don't want a scene, I don't want to blow up and I don't want to embarrass myself. As I walk, the anger bubbles higher and higher. Up my chest, my neck, my cheeks and overflows. Burning hot tears run down my face.
"Wait!"
I begin to speed up and she jogs behind me shouting a million ways to get me to stop.
"Where are you going!?"
She's getting closer now so I speed up.
"Please!"
She grabs my hand and I turn to her. My eyes sting incessantly. When she seems my tears her face drops and her eyebrows pinch together.
She reaches for my other hand but I pull it away. She pulls me into a hug but I slam my hands on her shoulders and struggle out of her grasp. She remains latched onto my hand.
"Stop it Hazel! Get off me!"
I shout and aggressively shake her hand from mine. My attempt fails.
"I don't understand"
"Neither do I!"
"Please just tell me what the fuck happened"
"You!"
"Wha-
"You and your stupid marshmallows-
My voice begins to shake.
"W-
"You! helping me learn guitar, the fucking cabin!"
My voice completely cracks on the last word.
She shakes her head in confusion. I wipe my tears aggressively and through my blurred vision I see the girls from the club approaching us.
"Does all of that mean nothing to you!?"
This comes out as more of a plea that a scream.
"Of course it does"
"Don't give me that shit Hazel!"
I see PJ and Josie step up behind Hazel. PJ walks over to me with her hand out.
"You stay the fuck away from me"
I step away from her and flick my eyes between Hazel and PJ.
In this moment I feel utterly pathetic. Here I am I tears and they're completely unfazed.
They glance at each other and hazels mouth opens in realisation.
"How did y-
She stops herself. She puts her hands out in an attempt to calm me.
"No no no no no this is not-!
She shouts for the first time and before she finishes my brain has floated away.
I want to scream for her to go fuck herself. I wanna shove PJ. But I don't. I simply run. I run off the field... leaving their faint desperate pleas behind.