Love Your Imperfect [Completed]

Chapter 11- Depression

Sam asked her mother to take care of the company for a while, she said she want a long vacation with her wife. Her mother happily accepted.

The couple went to England for IVF process. They met Doctor and start going for procedure.
The couple settle to used Sam's egg and for next time Mon's. 
After transfer the embryo, they waited 2 week, Sam get pregnant, they were very happy but the happiness doesn't last long, Sam miscarriage the baby.
They try for two more time, it goes unsuccessful and their Doctor said Sam has some problem with pregnancy and the chances of carrying baby is low.

They came back home. Sam become hopeless about the whole situation, she cry secretly and doesn't show to her wife but Mon knew.
Time goes by, Sam depressed and suffer silently. It affects in her work, most of time her mood swing, thats leads to small fight. Mon try to console her wife but there is no progress.
Mon asked her to see a therapist that leads to bigger fight.

Mon couldn't see her wife in depressed she thought of an idea that can change their current situation.
One night, Mon wake up and Sam is not on the bed, she search for her wife and found sitting on the couch crying. She goes there and hug her wife
"Daddy"
"Hey!! Why aren't you sleeping?" Mon sit next to her, Sam wiped her tears, she doesn't want to show it to her wife.
"You weren't there, how could I sleep"
"Umm sorry"
Mon pull her wife closer and hold her hand after a while she said
"Daddy, don't be like this"
"What are you taking about ?"
"This, I can't see you like this."
"Baby, I am worthless, I can't even give you a child"
"What worthless?? Don't make me angry?"
"Sorry, but this is true" Mon thought it's the right time to say whatever in her mind.
"Daddy, can I request something?"
"Umm what is it?" Sam raised her eyebrows
"Promised me, you won't get angry"
"Is it about the therapy??"
"That also the case and one more thing"
"Ok, what is it?"
"First, lets see a therapist, I will be there with you every step and second I will carry our baby"
"What??"
"Don't you get what I had said"
"No, I get it what you said, about our baby"
"Yes, I said I will carry the baby, our baby"
"I don't want you to go through all those difficulties, still you are too young"
Sam is exhausted emotionally,  physically so she scared if the situation with Mon turn out like her, she think about it.
"Daddy"
"Uhhmm"
"I am going to be 24 next month, I am not a child anymore"
"Still you are too young"
"Either you choose 'you let me carry the baby' or 'I want divorce ' "
"What??? Divorce?? Why?? Don't you love me anymore mommy" Sam panic
"I love you more than anything, so let me help you, you are depressing, I need you to be with me, otherwise let me go, I can't deal it anymore, you are drifting from me lately"
"Baby"
"Daddy, let me do this, you promised me that you will let me do whatever I want, right, so let me do this for you, for me, for us, for our future "
"Baby"
"Don't baby me, I am old enough and this is final, I will carry our babies, you just come back to me, no more negative thoughts "
Sam nod at her wife
"Daddy, I need you, whether you carry or me, its same , they are going to be our baby only. Did you get what I am saying, right"
"Yes, you are right. They will be our baby".
"First thing first, we are seeing a Therapist"
"Ok"
Mon is happy to hear, Sam smile, after long time Mon saw genuine smile from her wife
"Ok then, come lets have sex, lately I don't get enough sex" Mon said, she put her hand on her nape " hhmm or should I seek it from other people" and run away from there.
"You rascal, don't you dare think about it" Sam shouted and running after Mon.

Sam's mental health is getting better, Mon can see the changes in Sam, after three months, Sam therapy sessions is over.

After a month, couple goes to England, this time for Mon. They goes pregnancy process , Mon insisted that she want to used Sam's egg.
After first attempt, they succeed. After 1 month of pregnancy they came home and referred a doctor in Thailand.