Toxic | Levi Ackerman

Chapter 10

Y/n has finished sorting all of her stuff. During the time she was, she couldn't stop thinking about how dumb she is and useless. Looking at everything that Levi has paid for, it makes her feel like a vulnerable girl all over again.

In her past years, her childhood home was full of screams, yelling, and neglect. Her parents weren't there for her at all. They've always told her she was a total mistake and she should've never been here. Although they never physically abused her, they mentally did. She couldn't do anything about them so she had to just take it. Her only getaway back then was school. She was able to hang out with Alice, who made her forget about her home life.

Now, although she still hangs out with Alice and her friends, she finds her getaway to be weed. However, she doesn't have anything on her so, what will she do?

Y/n gets up from the floor of her new room and heads to her bag. Where everything that Alice had given her, during the time she was at the hospital, was in. She searches and searches for something that will help her. Finally she finds a shaving razor. Having nothing else, she has to break it with her hands to get the small razors inside.

She begins crying as she lifts the sleeves of her hoodie and starts cutting her arms. Trails of blood seep from her arms from where she cuts.

She can't stand this. She doesn't want to deal with any of this anymore. Why couldn't she just die back then? Why couldn't she make smarter choices and leave Lucas earlier? Why can't she ever do things by herself? Why does she always need the help of somebody else?

Why? Why? Why?

Y/n doesn't understand. The more questions she asks herself, the more cuts she makes.

Eventually, she stops and looks down at herself. There's blood all over her arms and hands. She gets up to grab some makeup wipes and cleans herself. Bandaging her arm with the big bandaids that were for her forehead.

Once she's done, she wants to ask Levi if Alice could come and bring her something. Something to make her forget about everything.

She fixes her hoodie's sleeve and makes her way to Levi's room. Scared to bother him. But she does so anyway.

Knock knock knock

Levi opens the door to see Y/n outside his door. He notices her eyes are swollen but doesn't ask why.

"What?" He asks instead.

"I was wondering if Alice could come to bring me something." Y/n asks him. She would understand if he doesn't want to, but she NEEDS something at least.

"Uh yeah. I don't care. Just don't bother me or make a mess." He says, waiting for what Y/n might say. He wants to ask why she looks... pale? But he knows why and it's not his place to ask anyway.

"Thank you." Y/n says as she gives him a fake low smile. She begins to head out the door when Levi comes out of his room.

"Oi. I know you're like going through a lot. So I just wanted to say that if you ever want someone to talk to. Then, I'm here." Levi says crossing his arms as he leans on the corner of the walls.

"Oh. Thank you." She says again. She's thankful to have someone who cares, take her in. But she's cautious about trusting him completely just yet.

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Alice is now over at Levi's house. Both her and Y/n are sitting outside.

"Here. I got you this. I'll see when I'll get you the real shit. I just don't got that kinda money right now." Alice says as she hands Y/n a cart while sitting herself down.