Your Love Is Like A Drug | Vance Hopper

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OCTOBER 4TH 1979
LUCY'S POV

Nothing much happened in the last three days. I didn't get much sleep. The nightmares were ruthless last night. Sure id get nightmares here and there before everything. But now it's been every night.
My eyes are heavy, I can barely hold them up.

I drank a cup of coffee to hopefully keep myself awake. The phone started to ring, "hello?" I answered. "Hey.." I could tell it was Jamie and she sounded sick, "dude, are you sick?" I questioned. She let out a cough, "yeah I have the flu". Her voice sounded terrible. "I'm gonna be out of school for a few days.." she mentioned. "Really? Fuck, I hope you get better.." I heard someone talking in the background "I gotta let you go Lu, I'll talk to you later" and she hung up.

Me and Molly walked out, to my left I saw Vance was leaving too and I invited him to walk with us, he accepted.

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School was still weird. People were still looking at me, staring, spreading rumors.
But there were some people that couldn't look at me, so maybe the fight with Vance wasn't a total waste. Seniors have a half day today. I have know idea what the announcement said, all I remember was that I was told I could leave early.

I didn't have anything to do, so I walked around. I was very conscious of my surroundings, mainly because of the kidnapping and now I'm sober.

I got to Green Street when I heard a car behind me, it was driving painfully slow. I discretely caught a glance of the car out of my peripheral vision and saw that it was a black van, white words on the side.

My heart sunk. ' it's not him.' I thought, 'He's dead. Deep breaths' . My breathing was shallow. I feel so pathetic. Why can't I be normal? I started to pick up my pace.

Maybe I'm paranoid but I swear that fucking van was following me. The faster I went the faster the van went. It was matching my speed.

I started sprinting, I was trying to get away.  I got to 15th Street, on the left of 15th was an open field. I ran straight into it, I went up the hill and i saw someone sitting. Vance. "Vance!" I shouted. He turned around and saw me running. He jumped up and ran to me. When he caught up to me he pulled me into a hug, trying to comfort me.

"Hey, hey what's wrong?" he asked. "I.. the van.. it.. I can't breathe..." I was hyperventilating, I felt embarrassed.
" Hey, it's ok, you're having a panic attack" he said cupping my face. " Just breathe in and out ok? " He said demonstrating how I should be breathing.

My breathing settled. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him close. My head laid on his chest. He rubbed my back with his right hand since his left hand is still bandaged.

VANCE'S POV

Seeing her like this scared me. I want to be there for her. " Do you wanna talk about it?" I asked. Even though I run from my emotions she shouldn't go through that alone. She shrugged. "Here, let's sit down" I suggested.

We sat down, I had my right arm wrapped around her, Lucy laid her head on my shoulder.  "What happened?" I asked concerned.

She took a deep breath, "there was this van.. I know it wasn't.. him.. but it looked exactly like his van. I swear it was following me, I got all worked up...". I can't lie and say she's crazy. I have had the same thing happened to me. "Yeah," I sighed out "the same fucking shit happened to me..".

" I just wanna be normal.. y'know? " she mumbled. I nodded and said, "having normal problems.. ".

"Yeah" Lucy agreed, "I mean I talked to Jamie about it, but she doesn't get it like you do.." she then added, " she worries about boys, and clothes. Normal shit. That's what I want to worry about."

We switched to laying down, still in each other's embrace. I did really enjoy laying here with Lucy, holding her, talking to her. Her presence just makes me feel better. I don't know what our relationship is anymore.

We laid in the field for hours. Talking and laughing. I enjoyed spending the time with her. Just holding each other. It got closer to 3, and Lucy had to go pick up Molly. I walked with her.

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LUCY'S POV

I had a great time with Vance. It feels like he understands me on a different level. He came with me to pick Molly up. He even came over afterwards. I dont know what is happening to our relationship, but I choose to ignore it. If I take notice into the relationship it'll screw everything up.

We were sitting in my room listening to
AC/DC's newest album, highway to hell. Me and Vance were sat on the floor reading some comic books he brought over. My reading was interrupted by a knock on the door. Vance immediately turned the music down.

I got up, unlocked the door and creaked it open. I knew it wasn't Molly since she was with Gwen.

It was my dad. "Yeah?" I asked. "Can I come in?" He asked. His eyes were red, red from crying. "I... Uh.. im really busy right now dad" I sighed.

"Oh.. that's ok.. I just wanted to say that I'm... Sorry.. I've been a shitty father to you and Molly, and when she gets here I'll apologize too.. I want to be a better dad, i want to stop drinking and doing drugs" he explained. I didn't know what to say. I wanted to believe him, but it was that faint smell of vodka on his breath that convinced me not to. I don't want him to apologize to Molly and give her false hope.

"Um.. ok.. don't talk to Molly, she doesn't deserve to be disappointed like that. You smell like vodka. " I whispered, I shut the door and locked it. I took a deep breath and took my spot on the floor back.

" Are you ok? " Vance asked since he heard the entire conversation." Yeah.. turn up the music" I said. I grabbed the comic I was reading and opened back up to the page I was on. 'god I need a smoke'.

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Omg I'm soo sorry I took a long break, I had midterms and testing, I had to take time to study. But I got the chapter up! I do have the next 2 chapters planned out so those shouldn't take long to get those up. ANYWAYYY I hope you guys are having a great day/night/morning love you!

-payton