I hate that I love you [Diabolik Love story]

Book Three: 3

That night when Serena went to bed she slept with Subaru beside her; Kanato was pissed at it though, but knew better than to piss off the woman he loved so dearly. He sulked on the bed that Subaru used to always sleep on as Mitch and Gina slept on the couch together. Kanato couldn't sleep, he felt too bad for making Serena suffer so much. He heard his child crying while Serena slept and got up to take care of it.

He saw that Serena was struggling to get up and he gave her a sad smile before he picked up Eric and took him out of the room so she could sleep. He sang to Eric like he would sing to Serena, he smiled as he saw that it worked. Eric was asleep once more and he kept Eric in his arms the entire night to keep him from crying out. When morning came and Serena woke up she was surprised to see that Kanato still was singing to Eric.

That he was treating their child with such kindness, she frowned at the thoughts that went through her mind. He wouldn't marry her but he would take care of their child. He wouldn't want to be with her forever yet he would constantly have unprotected sex with her. It just didn't add up to her.

"Kanato...Thank you for keeping Eric to sleep." Serena said as she came into the room

"He's my child too you know, you don't have to always do everything alone. I know I messed up but you and our son are all I have left. You two keep me sane." He said sadly

"I thought you said you didn't want to have a family of your own?" Serena asked confused

He sighed and leaned his head against her shoulder. "I thought that too...but being here again. Being with you again and with our son. I was stupid and foolish to think that I'd be able to escape this, seeing how he looked at me...seeing just what we've made together. I...I don't want to lose the both of you." He said as he began to cry against her

"I never wanted to lose you either, its why I attempted to kill myself over you. I didn't know what to do, but I guess I was a bit dramatic from the pregnancy to think that everyone would want to marry at some poi-" She said before her lips were covered with his own

Her eyes widen as she looked to him, he pressed his forehead against hers. "Serena, I love you. I will always love you. I know that I can't erase what has happened in our past but I can make sure that our future is better with our son."

She blushed as she looked up into his purple eyes. "Kanato...I can't do this right now. I need to focus on my work right now, I'm finally getting my life straight. I have two silly great friends I'm working on a degree to do something other than fast food and I'm not that much of a socially awkward person anymore."

"Can't you balance both?"

She sighed as she closed her eyes. "I don't know but I'm going to try, with Eric here I need to really try for his sake. Speaking of which think you can watch on him while I'm in college I have two afternoon classes and a night class tonight. I won't be home till around nine."

He smiled and nodded his head. "Sure thing, I can do that."

She pecked his cheek before she got up. "In ten come to the kitchen for breakfast alright?"

"Alright Serena."

She went back to her room and got things for a shower before she took a quick shower. She then made french toast for breakfast and woke up those who weren't awake yet. Gina helped a lot with Eric due to her being a quick eater and after eating Mitch and Kanato did the dishes together while Gina, Serena and Subaru spoke in the living room. Gina was very curious about Subaru and Kanato. Since Gina had been friends with Serena she had no idea what was going on with her friend. It had been two years since Gina had been friends with her and just now things were starting to get interesting with her.

"So....Your name really isn't Luna, but Serena...am I getting that right?" Gina asked curiously

"Mhm, that's right. I've had amnesia for the last two or so years and in that time my aunt has been taking care of my child in secret. Which pisses me off that she'd do something like that but there's nothing I can do about it. I was an emotional mess back then. Kanato was the one who I was in a relationship with at that time, I didn't know how to handle the fact that he didn't want to marry me because I was pregnant with his child."

"And the guy beside you?" Gina asked

"Subaru? He's a very close friend of mine." Serena said with a smile

"So...You still aren't going to be in a relationship are you?" Gina asked curiously

"Not entirely."

"No?"

Serena laid her head against Subaru's arm. "I'm going to be attempting to be around Subaru. You see this isn't the first run in with these two I've had. Years ago I had a lot of conflict with the two of them and it just made things harder for me as time went on cause of Kana and Rosa making things difficult"

Gina scoffed. "Rosa Vorts was the girl you had troubles with right?"

"Yeah, annoying little pests." Serena said with a nod

"Agreed, I heard she finally married that one guy." Gina said with a sigh

"You mean Mark Yushta?" Serena asked

"Yeah him...Poor soul."

Serena laughed and smiled. "His problem now."

"And this Kana girl what was she like, I don't think I ever met her?"

"You wouldn't either she should already be dust by now."

Subaru looked to Serena shocked. "Is it because of what happened between her and I?"

"Yeah, she denied being around you so she was denied life. That's how it goes." Serena said with a shrug

"Damn hard core So...you're a vampire now aren't you?" Gina asked

"Yup and so is my kid." Serena said with a nod

"Please tell me you're going to raise him not to harm people." Gina asked sadly

"I'd never make him out to be like his father. He's going to grow up proper and nothing less is will I will expect of him." Serena said seriously

"You sound just like Cordelia."Subaru said looking to Serena

"Serena's nothing like that woman. She isn't a whore nor is she as cruel as her." Kanato said as he sat on the other side of Serena

Serena was shocked to hear the words coming out of Kanato but smiled and placed a hand on his arm. "Calm yourself Kanato."

"Not until he apologizes for what he had said about you!"

"Not going to happen. We haven't been in her life in two years, a lot can happen in that much time." Subaru said with a shrug

"True that things can happen. But I can vouch for Serena here. She hasn't been sexually active with anyone, even though one of the males I'm acquainted with almost got away with it if it wasn't for the fact that she screamed and bolted out before he could get close to her. Apparently something triggered inside of her and she was a sobbing mess for hours." Mitch said as he sat beside Gina

Kanato frowned as he looked to her. He knew why she had, it was the memories they share together that made her bolt out and be with anyone else. He knew that being around him had affected her a lot and there was nothing he could do about it.

"Well even if you aren't a whore like her, you certain act as cold as she had." Subaru commented

"Subaru if you don't want to end up on the floor I suggest you shut your damn mouth up." Serena growled annoyed

"What can't handle the truth Serena?" Subaru asked

"Say one more fucking thing I dare you." Serena said narrowing her eyes at Subaru

"You really are in denial, being around Kanato all those years ago really did fuck up your mind didn't it?" Subaru said; unfazed by Serena's threat.

She got up and she threw Subaru across the room making him be face first into the floor by the kitchen. "Talk shit about me again and next time you'll end up out of the fucking window!"