I hate that I love you [Diabolik Love story]

Book One: 22

Kanato refused to speak with Subaru after what he had done to make it so he couldn't see Serena anymore. He didn't like that he had nightmares all over again. It was like the world was enjoying making him pay for leaving Serena alone. All of his nightmares were of him watching her die before his eyes. He couldn't stand seeing her dead, so seeing her die in his nightmares made him cry when he woke up the next night.

That was until one time he had one nice dream about the brunette girl, they were cuddling in her room on her bed. He was content with the dream, she was singing to him like she usually did to keep him calm and happy while he was with her. She then faced him and went on top of him.

"You need to stop blaming yourself and Subaru for my death...it wasn't because of either one of you that I died that night." Serena said sadly

He looked to her sadly as he wrapped his arms around her burring his face against his neck. "Then why did you die that night?"

"My eldest brother....He found a way into the house while I was taking a bath since I was alone I knew I could actually clean myself without you trying to do something sexual to me." She said shaking her head

"So you were murdered...it wasn't because of your moods...it was because of someone who you used to live with that killed you." He said sadly

"Mhm, you my dear need to stop being so darn hard on yourself. Stop blaming and hurting yourself over me. I know it hurts, the pain will forever be there I know that. I'm just another human girl who got to you and died before my time...But you-" She said before she was pushed down and kissed

"Do you have any idea what you're saying?! You aren't just some stupid human girl to me! You were someone who I loved and cared deeply for! I never felt like I have around you around anyone else. I love you Serena....I love you so much....Please just come back." He said before he cried against her shoulder

"Kanato, I love you too...I-I'll always love you. Be a good boy for me please?" She said before Kanato woke up.

He woke up alone in his room and he held his teddy tightly against his chest. "It wasn't because of us...I wonder if that's what Subaru's been trying to tell me all this time." Kanato said sadly as he buried his face into his pillow

He stayed in bed for a few more moments before he got up and dressed. He then stayed quiet until after school when he was able to talk to Subaru alone.

"Subaru...Serena talked to me in my sleep." Kanato said softly

"She told me, I've been trying to tell you for weeks that I have been able to see Serena's ghost, she apparently thinks its best to taunt me when she know's I can't hurt her." Subaru said with his arms crossed

Kanato gave out a empty laugh before shaking his head. "That sounds like her...She said that her death was because of her brother...Not because of her emotions."

Subaru looked to Kanato shocked. "Really? I didn't know that."

Kanato nodded his head. "Mhm, she said that her brother was the one who used your knife on her that it was because we left the door unlocked when we left that he was able to kill her. It had nothing to do with us...so...I'm sorry."

Subaru shrugged. "I'm over it, but Serena told me she was trying her hardest to try to get here so she could be with one of us. But I have no idea how she's going to do that though."

Kanato frowned as he thought about what could have happened to Serena. "I really hope she isn't thinking about putting herself through hell again just to see us once more."

"Knowing her she would and there isn't anything either one of us can do about it."Subaru said with a sigh as he got up. "Just keep the thoughts of her with you...You'll see she'll come around sooner or later."

Months went by and neither one of the males saw any sign of the female anywhere. She stopped bugging Subaru in his room as a ghost and she stopped visiting Kanato in his sleep as well. Both of them hoped she was able to do what she wanted. Both males felt slightly concerned about the girl until one night the car that they were in to go back to the house began to swerve off of the road and explode against a tree. As they saw the car no longer be in service Kanato saw four males and one female

His eyes went wide when he saw the female, he said nothing about her as he realized what was going on. Subaru saw her as well and growled under his breath, he didn't know who she was around, but he didn't like it one bit. When they got home Kanato and Subaru both went to talk to one another in Subaru's room.

"How come she's with four males for?" Subaru asked

"Like I know!? But she isn't a ghost and she isn't dead...that's how we have to look at this like. There's a reason behind this...we just have to figure out what." Kanato said as he held his teddy tightly

The two of them discussed what they needed to do to get Serena back with them and what to do about the males she was living with. Neither one of them trusted the males because of how possessive they were to Serena. Both of them knew that Serena was a live and that she knew they knew she was.

Then it clicked in Kanato's head as he frowned. "W-What if she avoids us?"

"I don't ever see that happening. She cares a lot about you and I know she cares at least a little bit about me. There isn't much restraint in Serena." Subaru said seriously

Serena laughed as she sat on the balcony outside of Subaru's room. "Someone's been keeping up with my attitude...I'm very impressed Subaru."

Both of them looked to her shocked, and speechless.

"Surprise boys...Sorry about the car think that was Ruki's idea to get the others attention. Even though I told him not to do it he still did." Serena said with a sigh. "Even though I'm the oldest he doesn't listen to me cause I'm a-"

She was cut off by Kanato hugging her and kissing her. She blinked a few times before she smiled and kissed him back, wrapping her arms around his neck.

"Tell me you're going to stay here...please?" Kanato begged

"Sorry cutie, I can't. Not without Reiji's consent which reminds me I need to properly introduce myself to him otherwise I'm just going to be hated like he and all of you will hate the boys. This isn't new to me...this is all a re-run. I told you boys when you lived with me that your lives were a show right?"

Both males nodded their heads.

"Yeah well this is just repeating itself. Kanato I'm warning you right now, you leave Teddy around Yui when she comes back here in about a months time Azusa a fucked up self harming male will burn teddy. I know you don't want that to happen. Keep Teddy in your arms at all costs when the time comes. Now I must leave, but you'll see me tomorrow boys and I promise then I will tell you anything and everything you wish to know." Serena said before she kissed Kanato one last time and she gave Subaru a tight hug. "Be good boys."

She then jumped off of the balcony and she disappeared. Kanato looked to Subaru who just shrugged.

"Should we listen to her?" Subaru asked

"She sounded like she was serious about what will happen. I trust her...so I'm going to listen to her. I don't want to lose my teddy." Kanato said sadly "If Rena thinks its best for us to listen to her advise then I think that's what we should do."

"Then tomorrow we have her spill out everything, I'm not going to let her keep anything to herself." Subaru said seriously