I hate that I love you [Diabolik Love story]

Book One: 6

Serena nodded her head before she held on to the back of his jacket tightly. "I'm...I'm just a mistake Kanato...M-My mother even told me I was. H-how can you think that I'm not just by being around me for half a night?" She asked as she continue to cry

"If you weren't supposed to be alive why would you still be alive now? Ever thought about that, I may not know what it's like to be told that I'm a mistake, but you're alive now and you have a purpose somewhere. Just you have to find it somehow." Kanato said softly to her

She nodded her head again as she slowly started to stop crying. "I-I guess you are right about that Kanato...I...I feel really tired."

Kanato placed teddy between her and him before he picked her up as he stood up. "I got you Serena, don't you worry about a thing."

She buried her face against his chest as she once again nodded her head. She wasn't going to object even though she hated to be picked up. She closed her eyes and allowed him to carry her into the house and into her room before he took his shoes off and hers before he lied beside her holding her within his arms.

"T-Thank you Kanato." She said softly before she looked up to him and softly kissed him on the lips

He kissed her back before he petted the back of her head. "There's no need for that, just sleep alright, when you wake up I'll be here for you I promise."

She nodded her head silently before she slept within his arms contently. While she slept Kanato softly sang to her guessing she knew that he enjoyed singing.

[Kanato's Gin No Bara]

"Hidden within the deranged peaceful silence, a black cradle swaying with too much trust

If...there is an end...I want you to tell me, the meaningless answer within your pure eyes

Like softly crushing a tarnished silver rose in my hands

If we could forget the cruel pain of fate, I could drain you without noticing how severely lethal it is

This darkness is...an endless cycle......

Sleeping quietly, the scars left behind on your neck

Even if the point when the tears overflowed is an eternal curse,

Now this preciousness and this pain are sleeping within our hearts

I want you to be mine...for eternity

In the distorted moonlight, if I could laugh...driven by the doubt of the memory of this blood

Continue to hate the sunlight, because then I feel at ease, continuing to cling to my mother's curse

No-one will be forgiven...once I taste your sweet red bloodstained scars

Our desires in the labyrinth as our bodies come together, our lips intertwining

Love is...so distant......

A faint feeling of inspiration, the wish I whisper in your ear

Even if we reach the dark abyss at the end of these feelings we'd dreamt of,

Now this preciousness and this pain are sleeping within our hearts

It doesn't matter where, as long as we can become one

Sleeping quietly, the scars left behind on your neck

Even if the point when the tears overflowed is an eternal curse,

Now this preciousness and this pain within our hearts...

A faint feeling of inspiration, the wish I whisper in your ear

Even if we reach the dark abyss at the end of these feelings we'd dreamt of,

Now this preciousness and this pain are sleeping within our hearts

...The meaning...of loving...teach it to me......please " He sang only to have her only on to him tightly as well as moved closer to him.

He wondered if she even heard him sing, he hoped that she did and that she realized he cared a lot for her. Being as the plushie again he tried to make it so he could find her to make her stop the torture of being smaller than teddy. But he only ended up on the ground face first, so he cried, he didn't want to lose the loving feeling he had for the woman. Hell most of the feeling he felt for her was still in him, just he didn't know how to make her understand that he was being truthful to her. That he did love her that he wasn't just saying what he did because he could.

She was the first female to take one look at him and be love struck about him. He didn't want to lose that in her, he wanted her to keep being love struck about him, keep the feeling of wanting him close to her. She was the first to really be affectionate around him, he wasn't going to let it pass him by when he knew he could make her his. But seeing her almost killing herself that night scared him, he wasn't going to admit it but it did. Holding her closer to him he kissed the top of her head before he closed his eyes.

"I wish you can trust me, I want to see the real you." He said softly to her before he fell asleep as he saw that the sun was slowly starting to rise.

When the next evening came around Serena woke up around 5 pm, she remembered what happened the previous night and she blushed as she felt arms around her. She looked behind to her to see that it was Kanato who had their arms around her. She remembered snuggling against his chest as she heard him sing but she didn't remember having her back to his chest. Did she move in her sleep for her to be like that? She looked up at him as he slept and slowly got out of his arms only to place teddy in his arms in her place before she got her drawing pad out and started to sketch him as he slept.

She didn't want to wake him so she didn't leave her room, she finished the outline before she saw that he was awake. She then found herself from her chair to the bed and kissed. She kissed him back as she held his hands tightly as they were pinned down by him. He smiled a little as he moved closer to her.

"Don't you ever leave my arms again, if you wake before I do stay put. I want to always be sure that you're safe do you understand me Serena?"

She blushed and nodded her head. "I...I understand Kanato. I apologize, but I wanted to sketch you while you slept." She said being honest

"You can draw?" He asked

She nodded her head again. "I-If you let me get up I'll show you."