I hate that I love you [Diabolik Love story]

Book Three: 7

The next night Serena went to find Kanato since she woke up without him beside her, she didn't know where the sweet toothed male went off to, it upset her that she couldn't find him until she heard his voice outside. She walked a bit faster only to stop when she heard Yui's voice as well. Her heart began to sink as she heard the two of them speak to one another.

"You are so much easier to be around than her."

"Does that mean..Does that mean you will stay with me Kanato-kun?"

"Of course silly girl, just stay close to me and everything will be okay."

Serena looked from a crack in the door to see Kanato Kissing Yui on the lips. Her brown eyes widen before they teared up. "K-Kanato...H-How could you?" She whispered before she bolted off.

She rushed around the manor before she found Subaru, he immediately looked to her confused before he was tackled down by the brown haired female to the wall. He grunted a bit as he wrapped his arms around her.

"What the hell was that for?" He asked as he looked down to her

In response all he got was her sobbing out as she held on to him tightly. He wondered why she was crying but figured it had to do something with his elder half brother. "What did Kanato do this time?"

"Y-Yui..." Was all she could say to him through her sobs

Subaru felt pissed off at Kanato, how the hell could he give Serena false hope like he had the previous night only to be with Yui the next?! He made Serena look up at him and he kissed her on the lips as he wiped the tears from her face. "Stop crying, he's not fucking worth it. If he's lying to you like this he's not worth your damn time."

"Y-You remember too...D-Don't you?"

"Yeah, I was a dumb ass to try to take you on top of the school, but I hadn't seen you in a long while. What the hell was I supposed to do? I never meant to harm you Serena." Subaru said with a sigh

She held on to his shirt tightly as she sniffled a bit. "I-I don't wanna be around Kanato then. I-I will try to be with you Subaru...I-If you'll allow me to make up for lost time."

"I'd ask you if you're crazy, but I already know you are. Just keep in mind I'll be very protective and possessive of you. There's nothing you can do about that either."

She buried her face against his chest and nodded her head. "I'm okay with that. T-Thank you Subaru."

He sighed once more as he kept a tight hold on her. "Tell me have you been around the manor yet?"

"No, I've been too worried about that meanie Kanato." She said shaking her head

"Then allow me to show you around, you'll be here a while right?"

"Mhm. I don't know how or when I'll be going back home...or if I ever will. For all I know I'm stuck here with the lot of you."

"We'll lets see what time says about you being here." Subaru said as he holds her hand in his own

She looked down at their hands before she blushes and nods her head as she looks back up at him. "O-Okay Subaru...T-Thank you."

He walked her around and talked to her about how things were around the manor, she knew most of it to begin with but some of the things he told her she was shocked to hear about. It was strange for her to feel so calm around Subaru but it made her happy that she felt as calm as she had round Subaru. She felt a bit guilty though, she only ever thought about Kanato, never Subaru.

So knowing that Subaru still had strong feelings for her...it upset her that she hadn't given him the time of day to prove himself to her. She knew better than to so again, she'd go with her heart and keep up with what it thought was right. Which was to forget about Kanato for now and to focus on Subaru. He had been waiting for her and it was only a matter of time before he would go off. That much she did know.

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Subaru couldn't handle it, the affection and attention from Serena. It had been two weeks already and she had already shunned Kanato completely and given him all of her attention, she didn't see the monster that he saw inside of him. She didn't see how dangerous he could be to her, what she saw...he couldn't ever see in himself.

So while she was taking a bath he chose to do something about the thoughts inside of his head. He knew that it was wrong of him to do so but it would be better off for her anyways. He couldn't love her like she should be, there was no telling what could happen if he got closer to her what would happen to her...or to him.

He grabbed his dagger and he turned it on himself, he was about to pierce it through his skin when he heard the voice of Serena speak out in confusion and sadness. "S-Subaru...W-Why are you trying to kill yourself for?"

He couldn't let her know what he felt, he couldn't break her heart like that. There was just no way he could let her know how he truly felt. It wasn't until his red eyes caught her sad brown ones that the regret for even attempting to kill himself sunk into him. She placed her hands softly on his. "Does being with me make you go that much insane Subaru?"

He still said nothing to her, he didn't know how to speak to her, it made him upset that he was slowly seeing her cry, he didn't want that. He didn't want to see her spill tears because of him. He dropped his blade and hugged her tightly. "I-I'm sorry. I'm not used to this...to you being around me like this. Please...don't cry." He said softly to her

She held on to his shirt tightly. "Baru I love, don't hurt yourself...don't die cause of me." She said sadly

"I know you love me...I just...I can't seem to grasp the fact that out of all of us you pick me to be around. I will hurt you , you know...I'm not as gentle as some of the others would be with you."

"I don't care about that, I love you Subaru..only you. Please don't let me see you do that again." She said with a frown as she looked up to him

"You're still wearing the same clothes from before how come?"

"Kanato and Yui." She said as she scrunched her nose in disgust.

"Oh gross, really? That's just disgusting."

"Mhm, I'm just waiting to hear Kanato yell cause Reiji caught them in the bathroom."

Subaru chuckled a bit. "You would be a little devil like that."

She giggled a bit. "But I'm your little devil Baru." She said with a small smile

He kissed the top of her head softly. "I know you are and I'm happy to have you with me...Thank you for snapping me out of it."

"You're more than welcome, so...wanna do something together?"

"Sure"

He got the dagger from the floor and handed it to Serena who looked to him confused. "Before we do anything I want you to hide this from me so I don't do anything stupid with it. From time to time I will want to question the two of us together...I know I shouldn't be doing that so I need you to keep it from me so I never do it again."

Her eyes lit up before she nodded her head. "Where should I meet you?"

"The rec room."

"Okay Subaru!" She said happily before she kissed him on the lips softly and left rushing out with the dagger in her hand

Subaru knew he was doing the right thing letting Serena hide it on him. If he didn't know where it was then he wouldn't have to worry about ever disappointing and harming Serena ever again. With Serena she chose to hide his dagger in the soil of the white Roses in the garden. She always adored them and loved how they looked, just like her beloved boyfriend. So once she had it buried deep in the soil she cleaned her hands before she heard Kanato and Reiji yelling from the hall. She tried not to laugh too much as she went to the Rec room where she saw not only Subaru but Ayato and Laito as well.