Carlos S.
It was race weekend in Baku. Isa joined me and other than Charles said she hadn't been in Australia, why would she. The rest of the weekend had been pretty stressful, my car wasn't feeling good and I had ended up in P9.
Still points, but Checo had finished in P6 and I wasn't happy of course. Great result for the team obviously but I had to be better than him, I had to be on the podium, to win. I wanted to make everybody proud, especially my dad.
And of course Antonia. Unfortunately after our little conversation, or more my words towards her, she hadn't really spoken to me except for the necessary words between session. But everything that was possible she discussed with my trainer or engineers.
It was hurting me in some way and I really wanted to speak to her, to apologize but the right situation hadn't been coming up and today was already Friday, but I had something in my mind. Since Luca was here again this weekend, and I really missed him at the last race, I wanted to take that as my advantage.
"Ready for the day honey?" Isa asked as we went through the gates at the entrance of the paddock, she was joining me this weekend like said.
"Yeah." was my only answer as my thought were at something else, at someone else to be exact.
My thoughtful face lighted up as I saw the kid in front of the garage. Especially after he had noticed me my smile grew big and also Luca started smiling before he ran over.
"Carlo!"
I laughed and took him up in my arms while Isa just watched the scene with a weird look on her face.
"Since when do you like kids?" she asked me while Luca threw his arms around my neck.
However Antonia came out of the garage looking for her son and as she started shouting his name I let Luca back down so he could ran back to her.
"I never said I don't like kids." I answered Isa while still looking after the boy.
Antonia saw him and then looked further to me and a quick smile appeared on her lips and she nodded a thank you in my direction. I grinned back before I turned towards my girlfriend.
"You always said you don't want children." she said and raised an eyebrow.
"Yeah well that's true and I am not his father so where is your problem?"
"He seemed pretty cozy with you."
"He's a kid, it's normal." I said a bit louder as I wasn't getting her point.
On her red becoming face I could see how angry she was and I didn't understand so I turned around before she could say her next words. Quickly I walked over to the hospitality and to my drivers room to get changed for practice.
Her words though didn't want to leave my head and I thought back. The topic kids and faily had been more often on the table in the last year than some other things and my opinion on that was always clear.
Racing was at the moment the most important thing for me, I couldn't be a father or a good dad to some little human, that wasn't possible and I didn't want to cut back on my career. This all together meant that I didn't want kids at the moment.
I had thought she had understood that, so why was she now making such a scene because the kid of my boss hugged me, what was wrong with that? Nothing right. With that I shoved it aside and got changed before I headed over to the garage.
When I went through the tunnel I saw Luca hiding at the end of it, peaking looks into the crowded garage.
"Hey little man, what are you doing here?"
He shrugged first but as he recognized me he relaxed immediately. However he didn't want to answer my question so I knelt down in front of him.
"You okay buddy?" I asked worried and took his small hands in mine.
"There you are, I was looking for you." Antonia said as she came across the corner, her eyes widened as she saw me.
"Luca here played hide and seek." I said and a smile appeared on the boy's face while I looked up to Antonia.
The first time since the Sunday in Australia, before I fucked up, I saw her smiling and it was beautiful, I've missed her smile.
"Yeah, he's a little scared around people, I always wonder why he likes you so much." she whispered to me as she took her son on one hand.
"What's not to like about me." I replied and winked at her.
"I..." Antonia started but didn't find the word so she just laughed and looked down while brushing a hair strand back behind her ear.
Challenging I looked at her, raising any eyebrow in waiting for an answer but she just giggled. I saw her look falling down to my lips for a moment and I felt a warm feeling inside my stomach but it was quickly gone as I heard a voice behind me.
"Carlitos, where can I watch the practice?" Isa shouted while coming through the tunnel.
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Team Principal | Carlos Sainz
Fanfiction"F1 and racing is my life so I always said I don't want children and a family yet. But maybe the problem wasn't the time, maybe it was the person."
