Bitter Steps to better life

Chapter 9: Overprotective and overloved

Whenever I talked to one of the online friends, I would always be jealous of the way his mother would overprotect him every time. Sometimes I wonder: Is it necessary to be overprotective? If yes, then why? Or was it that I wouldn't get that love from my parents? That's why I was feeling jealous.

Several days later, I got to know that my friend's mother had miscarriage twice, one before his birth and another after his birth. His mother would always feel lucky to have him. She always had a fear of losing him. She wouldn't even allow a scar to hit him, but this could sometimes lead to misbehavior towards his parents.

Besides him, I always saw my neighbor, who would always care for her children, and she would always do more than a mother should do for her children. Her secrets were revealed by herself in a flow conversation with me. She revealed that she had a mother, but her grandmother would always be jealous whenever her mother cared for her. Besides that, when she was carrying the baby in her stomach for the second time, which was causing her several labor pains as compared to the first child, She craved for her mother to be beside her. It's natural that when we are suffering from an illness, we require our parents to sit beside us and comfort us. That's what she wishes to have, but her mother refused to come to her place. Instead, she told her to come home, where her mother lived, but she couldn't travel due to pain, and when she was going to deliver her child, her relatives, instead of giving her hope and holding her hands, made her hands hold her to iron rods of bed. A question would arrive in her mind: Her mother, who was uncared for by her own mother, did that to her instead of knowing how one feels without a mother's love? At the end, she told me, "No matter what happens to me, I will always reach out for my children whenever they'll need me; it doesn't matter if I have something or not". As she narrated her story, I could feel her pain, which was pricking her heart.

I used to believe that it didn't matter whether I could provide for my children's needs or not. Even if I can't fulfill their financial needs, that will be okay, but I will never leave them alone whenever they need me. I mean, I always love and care for them as much as I can. No matter what, if once we lose something in our lives, we are always careful not to lose that thing again or not allow someone to lose it. Whatever our parents can't provide, We decide to try our best to provide them to our children.